Hillevi Jacqueline Church

Waking up Christmas morning is supposed to be the happiest most exciting morning ever when your a mom.......you are not supposed to wake up in a hospital bed, missing your husband, missong your big girl, step son and new born. Your supposed to be telling the kids 2 more hours come wale me up.....calm down.......everyone isnt awake yet......dont you touch those presents yet........but it is this morning I sit here. Tears streaming down my face, an octopus (its Hillevis's) on my chest, an incision on my belly, and a heart that aches so bad from missing my family that I can truly say I know the meaning of a christmas miracle. Saturday morning my little families lives were drastically impacted by the unexpected very early birth of our daughter/sister/granddaughter Hillevi Jacqueline Church. Joey and Harley became a big brother and sister at 1244 on 12/24/2017 to a 1 lb 15 oz 13.5 cm long baby girl. Only 24 weeks in mommy's belly. I had a severe abruption in my uterus causing a very excess amount of blood and discharge. After speaking with many doctors, nurses, practitioners, etc. Our lives began to rollercpaster faster than I ever knew possible. Terms, conditions, possibilities, scenarios, and on and on were thrown at Joe Church and I from every direction. Emotions were everywhere. Instantly your heart wants to blame someone for this all. Its not fair, why me, why my daughter, why on Christmas, what if the VA wouldnt have taken so long to get an appt, what if that what if this, but when stepping back and looking at it all there is no reason to blame, there is no reason to point fingers, there is only a reason to love our children more, hold them closer, kiss them often and hug them tighter. I am so sad that we are missing yet another Christmas with joey and that I'm sitting in this hospital bed missing my significant other, watching my new born in the NICU, missing my Harley bo barley, and my step son JoJo. Our lives will be forever changed by this and this is a christmas we will remember for a life time. There are so many uncertainties to still come in this knew challenge ahead of us. Joe and I are unsure that being full time students is still possible, we are not sure when we will get to be back in our home in sylvan lake, we are not sure about things in our lives right now and our main concern is our children, or families, and bringing Hillevi Jacqueline home healthy. We appreciate all the comments, messages, phone calls, etc. (Even though Joe sucks at answering) and cannot thank our friends, family, loved ones, and more enough for the unconditional love shown to our family. We are on a waiting list for the Ronald McDonald house in Rochester, MN but are unsure if or when we will get in. Joe and I know we have each other no matter what to lean on but its such a comforting feeling to know we have others as well. We love our children so much and appreciate all the love and support they are receiving from thise around us. We will continue to fight with Hillevi until April when we can hopefully (fingers crossed) bring her home. We are unsure of the costs that are about to come our way as the VA will only pay for the first 7 days after the baby is born. With Hillevi beibg so small she will more than likely be in the NICU until close to April 10 her due date. That makes going to school for both Joe and I impossible as we have to attend on course classes to receive our housing allowance from the VA. We are currently in Rochester, MN where we both feel comfortable keeping her until other options may arise. Thank you all so much