Derwin " Tony's" Cancer Fund

I can still recall the picture perfect November Saturday morning I saw my doctor . I had an afternoon planned to watch a lot of football and brunch with a friend .Things couldn't have been going better, and then it happened ; my life changed in a moment when my doctor told me I had cancer. It didn't register with me at all. I asked him to repeat himself, and I left the office still not exactly sure of what I had just heard.In a few minutes, my entire life changed and everything I thought I knew and believed has been altered. I felt like I was free- falling and of course wondering where was God in this. I would later be diagnosed with stage 4 colon cancer that November 2014. The cancer had spread to my liver and lungs. I had no symptoms and felt fine; I just happened to have a routine checkup that uncovered some suspicious findings that led to the discovery. I started chemo on my birthday 12/4/2014 . I'm fortunate to respond well to most of the treatment but it's hard on the body and wipes me out , I eventually stopped working about a year ago.I'm also fortunate to be working with some of the best doctors in the country at Memorial Sloan Kettering Cancer Center the number one hospital for cancer care in the nation . In addition to extensive treatment I've had three surgeries so far with more to come . I'm over $200,000 in cancer treatment debt and rising , not to mention other medical related expenses and medications . I have good days and bad ones ; I'm often depressed and fighting off self-pity. Cancer has left a trail of devastation that's hard to describe.It changes who you are and all you hope to be. The physical impact is the most obvious, but it's the emotional, spiritual, and mental assaults that fracture the psyche the most. One of my biggest challenges is noticing and being mindful of false beliefs about myself, cancer, living and dying , as well as assumptions and predictions about the future that generate unnecessary fear and doubt. I do my best to choose how to be and what to do in light of what's really true rather than what I fear, believe, or assume to be true. Cancer is not a death sentence but it forces me to examine my faith and stand on the scriptures that I know to be true ." The Lord is my light and my salvation so why should I be afraid ? The Lord is my fortress, protecting me from danger, so why should I tremble. I know the Lord is always with me.I will not be shaken, for He is right beside me"(Psalm 27). I'm thankful for all the prayers and support and thanks in advance for any contribution you can make toward my treatment moving forward .The financial burden is devastating and quite frankly something I didn't see coming but it's here and still coming . Asking for help has never come easy for me but this disease has humbled me in many ways and opened my eyes to pain and suffering I never knew. I promise to use the funding to address my medical expenses which are a source of depression and despair for me and causes a lot of sleepless nights .God bless you and words can't express my gratitude. " Behold I makes all things new " Revelation Sincerely, Derwin Tony Fussell P.S. Please feel free as an option to forward contributions directly to my sister : Erica Coleman, 175-09 Sayers Ave Jamaica , NY 11433