I Can’t Do This Alone

I am asking for YOU to please HELP ME today and in the coming days with a financial donation. I weigh 106lbs at 5’9” today with a BMI of 15.7. As a homeless 34 year old man, I know that I will be unable to get the weight restoration that I so desperately need while living on the streets or in a shelter, so I need your financial assistance to take the hand up that The Lotus Collaborative: Eating Disorder Recovery Center can provide me! Please continue reading for my story...


My name is Adam Cadd, and I am losing the fight to both an eating disorder (anorexia) as well as a horrible flare of Crohn’s disease that caused me to become hospitalized. My story is not traditional and does not follow the path of the hero, but it is wholly a human one. My father committed suicide by self-inflicted gunshot in 2001. At the time, I had believed my life was relatively normal. My weight was 152lbs at 5’9” and I felt healthy in mind and spirit despite my mother’s increasing alcohol abuse. My mother had always been a heavy drinker. My mother died of an alcohol induced gastrointestinal bleed in 2008 which left me feeling untethered in both my life and to the world. Between 2009 and 2015, I steadily lost weight and became increasingly malnourished. My eating disorder had begun.


My depression caused the breakup of my relationship with my girlfriend which further caused my life to spiral downward. The deaths of both my parents, my girlfriend leaving me days after my mother’s death, and a forced move from my home and I began living on the streets and in shelters. This caused me to fall into a severe depression with panic-attack type anxiety which then caused me to make an attempt on my own life on September 2016. By September 2016, I was sent to a psychiatric hospital for severe depression, suicidal thoughts, and my weight had plummeted from 150lbs to a minuscule 97lbs and a diagnosis of Crohn’s disease.


I am homeless. I weigh 106lbs at 5’9” today with a BMI of 15.7. The doctors have told me that my malnutrition has become so serious that I have experienced 3 spontaneous spinal fractures that required me to need a replenishment of nutrients through TPN (Total Parenteral Nutrition) which is an IV bag full of nutrients to help pull me back from the edge of death. As a homeless 34 year old man, I know that I will be unable to get the weight restoration I so desperately need while living on the streets or at a local California shelter.


So here we are, and it’s Halloween 2017. I am asking for YOU to please HELP ME today and in the coming days with a financial donation. My social worker has found a 12 week Eating Disorder Recovery Program that is located in Santa Cruz that can help me restore my weight and my health. The cost of the program is only partially covered through my insurance, but I need additional assistance with the cost of room and board as well as travel to and from the program. It is difficult for me to ask for a hand out, but I cannot do this all on my own. My life depends on your kind donations. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
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Adam Cadd 
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Santa Rosa, CA
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