My endo nightmare

I have had the absolute nightmare of a year this past year starting with a botched hysterectomy for my endometriosis which has resulted in a further 9 surgeries, and severe post traumatic stress disorder...Unfortunately they didn't remove all of my endometriosis and I am still in a heap of pain from this and also from the surgeries which means I am only able to work 2 days a week in the nursing home where I volunteered for two years before getting paid employment, and I need a day off in between for bed rest. I have been pushing myself to work more hours to cover the $1500 in medical expenses which I require in January alone, and its ongoing from there. But I just cant physically do it. Which is why I am begging for your help, I cant do this alone. I have a further, at least two surgeries coming up early next year. Endometriosis is a horrible disease where your pelvic organs end up all stuck together from the internal bleeding, I have extensive endometriosis which has fused my bowel to my bladder, and this causes a great deal of pain to the point where I have passed out from pain just from having a bowel movement and woken up slumped between the toilet and the shower screen. I have days where it just seems like it would be easier to die than to go on living in this much pain, somedays all I can manage is to get up and have a shower, I have lost many friends due to me not being able to participate in a normal life. So being unable physically to work to earn enough money to cover my medical expenses, I am humbly asking for your help, no matter how much or how little it will all help If you cant help financially then if I can ask you to please share this. So very grateful that you even took the time to read this and I thank you from the depths of my soul. Kat Miranda....xx