Save Michael Pastula

Hello, my name is Michael. Unfortunately, I was dealt what some people would call a, "bad hand in life." Before learning I had cancer, my doctor asked me if I had been stressed out these past couple years and I explained what happened between myself and my ex-fiance, which put in me in a very stressful position on my 30th birthday, jail. I know there is 2 sides to every story and the events I'm writing about would seem to have nothing to do with my cancer, except for the fact that this caused my stress levels to shoot out the roof possibly putting my health in jeopardy. I pride myself on being a kind, honest, law abiding citizen and when the verdict was announced to me, it broke my heart and my spirit. Previous to this, I had lost best friend on April 23rd 2009, which I love very much, RIP. I'm not going to go into detail about this but the dates and way everything was setup seemed strange. I know this is very dramatic, but it doesn't negate the fact these coincidences caused me to have multiple panic and stress attacks. The end to my relationship caused my ex to take out a restraining order on me. (If this sentence has you asking questions please FB me, TY) Another statute to a CT restraining order is a 3rd party conversation is just the same as a violation of face to face contact. This caused me to have to quit my job at Comcast because she also worked for Comcast, which I loved and I considered my job an extension of my hard work throughout life and when that was taken away from me the stress of not having a job or not being able to pay my bills didn't help. I started to see a psychiatrist because the stress was overloading my life. Bills started to mount up and I eventually I had my car repossessed and was evicted from my apartment. So in one year, I was wrongfully arrested, lost my job, my car and my home. I was currently in the process of filing for bankruptcy when I found out I had cancer. The doctors say that this level of stress could have been the cause of my cancer considering i'm only 31. They also said it could be the stress from my best friend ending his life 2 days before my birthday. It could be the stress of a divorced childhood, a lot has happened between now and then but luckily my Mother is a very strong person and now is a positive and kind Mother. My Father has always been there for me even though we don't have a lot in common and don't see eye to eye all the time, but I LOVE my parents very much. I'm tearing up just writing about this and how nobody should ever have to go through this pain. I just want to have a wife, kids, a house, the same thing everyone wants but, when you hear you have cancer, it makes you feel like you don't deserve to be in love because if I die, who is going to be there for my wife and kids. Its not fair to them that I've been sick in the past and that it could come back and they may have to watch pain like I did as a child. All I know is that if I'm given a second chance, I will be the best father, husband and especially person to any and everyone that I meet because they deserve love too. Please find it in your hearts to help me get a second chance so I can pay it forward and erase all the pain in my heart by doing good. Thank you so much.