Get Savannah And Kj Back With Mommy

My name is Heaven. I met Kelly when I was 14yrs old. I came from a broken home and thought love was all I needed from a boy. Little did I know what was so sweet in the beginning could turn into a brown-eyed monster who would lie, cheat, take and constantly knock me down about myself. Kelly was always a great provider, but made it clear he was the superior one in the relationship. He never added me to health insurance after we were married or to bank accounts because he wanted all the control. After years of him constantly making choices for me, and controlling every aspect of my life I decided I wanted something more. I wanted to be happy and raise my kids without always being screamed at, without them being called names, and actually spend time together without him making it seem ridiculous or a waste of time.On January 4th I told him I was done and wanted a divorce. As I began to exert my independence and make my feelings known in a way he couldn’t ignore, Kelly asked me to leave the house because "he couldn't stand to look at me and it was his house." So I left. I took my two kids and stayed with a friend where Kelly continued to pick at me for my failures in life or beg me to come back. Kelly and I are now in the middle of divorcing and due to the fact I stopped my life so he could have his I never got my license (he always struck down the Idea). I never finished school (he needed someone to take care of Joesph so he could go to school). And I had no job (because in his words the woman should stay home, cook, clean and raise kids).Due to not having what I need his lawyer and Kelly saw that as a great reason as to why he should have the children, even though Kelly has never spent more than an hour or two alone with them or taken care of them. I have done it all since the day he got custody of Joesph on March 10, 2010. The judge awarded custody of our children to this man who has never parented his children a day in their lives and who has spent the past ten years controlling every aspect of mine. He has hacked into my emails and social media accounts, and since gaining custody of my children has bullied my family members into taking care of the kids or no longer talking to me. He has my oldest "adopted" son so upset all the time he wants to go back to a psychiatric hospital. Savannah begs daily to be back with me, and KJ cries for me all the time as well.I am not an unfit mother, I have my downfalls, but I'm in the process of working on myself and have extremely supportive friends and loved ones by my side helping me and encouraging me along the way. I want nothing more in this world to build my new life with my kids by my side. This is the first time in 8 years that I have ever been away from them. It's not fair, and I want them home with me where they belong.My plans are to get my license, get a job, finish school then start schooling to become a sonogram technician! I have plans but want the kids with me they should be in a home where they are loved, wanted, happy and where their parent is home with them every night - not being left with family members so dad can go out and party on a week night or run around on the weekends. I can’t do this without help. I need to be able to retain an attorney who can help me in court hearings. I need someone who knows the laws and who can help me present my side in order to best protect my kids in the longrun. Please help me keep my children with the only parent they have who has ever actually BEEN their parent. Please help me tell the man who has controlled my life for the past 10 years that it is NOT okay – that I am much stronger than he has ever given me credit for. Any help you might feel led to give would be so appreciated. ~Heaven