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SURROGACY FINAL HOPE

I never in a million years thought I’d be in a position so vulnerable and so desperate. Iv worked my entire life , 2 and 3 jobs at times and always been financially independent , buying what ever bag , holiday , car and outfit I wanted without a second thought . I was always grateful of this , just not grateful enough when thing s come crumbling down and you realise just how lucky you were! 
I lost my mum in 2008 ,it was her choice .. and up until this day I’ll never accept that I couldn’t help her. This sent me to to some seriously dark places .. places now that i  find comfort in going to myself one day . But if there’s one thing that I know I must try and do .. is mirror the amazing mum she was and have a child of my own .., 
I had so many plans , so many happy thoughts of loving a child and never letting them feel as scared as my mum did! 
so fast forward to to 2015 when my world actually fell apart!! No one prepares  you for the words ... you’ve got cancer!.. there’s no words to think , to say ,other than .. I’m probably gonna die.. Iv already wrote my goodbye letters and planned what I want at my funeral ... I have 3 gorgeous fur babies who give me life but I long for that baby oh so much .
so I guess this is begging as I have no choice!!! .. Its a long long story , but here goes ..
when I had my operation I had my tumour removed from my bowel, basically cutting me down the middle of my abdomen and removing most of my my bowel .. I then had a bowel leak which again involved opening me up and Removing more bowel etc ..to cut a long story short they damaged my bladder ,my Fallopian tubes , my stomach  wall and have been left with a permanent colostomy bag. 
To say I’m a mess would would be an understatement . My whole world has been turned upside down 

so far I’ve spent over 17 thousand pound on ivf ., non funded even though they did this to me!!! Iv tried to go down the legal route for neglect but unfortunately there’s so much small print that I don’t stand a chance . I’m literally on my own . We have one last frozen embryo so surrogacy is our last hope.


I have one last chance at becoming a mummy , times running out and so have  the funds . Wordscan’t explain the heart ache of longing for something so much that you know would bring so much happiness. I’m so overjoyed for all my friendsand family when they have their beautiful babies .. I just can’t give up on the hope that one day it could be me. Xx 

thanks so much for listening xxx any help or ideas would mean the world xx 

 

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  • Rose Taylor
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    • 3 yrs
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