Please help me get my kennel of the ground!!

Hello, my generous and caring benefactors. Im trying to not only improve the life of the animals I love so much, but also improve my own life, which I have to admit I've made a pretty good mess out of. I love animals, more than people actually, and they are the one thing that consistently & completely make me happy, and right now the only thing I have that isn't pure misery. I have nothing else, & I can honestly say that I don't have one single friend or anything even remotely close to it.  I have struggled with lots of debilitating conditions throughout my entire life that have made it nearly impossible to wring joy out of my days, like severe depression & even self-medicating (drug & alcohol use) and it took most of my life from me so quickly that I cant believe it when i say my own age out loud. But never before in any of my 43 years have I ever had absolutely nothing of any value at all to my name, and not even one single person who knows or cares about any part of my life. I'm totally alone, & when I say I have nothing, I mean I don't have a dollar to my name, or even a place to stay that isnt a temporary fix. But I can say that the one thing that makes me happy is being with animals, & I have a burning desire to help them & make as many of them happy as I possibly can. Im applying for grants & loans as a sole proprietor because I'm going to build a no kill shelter for animals & make their care my full time job from this day forward. Please help me, beautiful people, do something good for them & for myself. I have found a piece of land in Hearne that I can rent for $500/month that has a perfect building with lots of rooms that I can use as kennels. I also have a retired, local vet that agreed to be "on call" as soon as I got running. All I need is the means to rent the place, & the money for food & supplies for the animals. Please, please, PLEASE consider helping me get this dream of mine together & help the animals in the area have a safe & loving place to go when they find themselves in a situation like mine. Please? I'm begging you to give us a chance. My pay pal is [email redacted], and my cash app is $HRdollface. My phone # is [phone redacted].