help me be apart of my son's life again

my name is corey and I'm trying to raise money for a lawyer so I can be apart of my sons life. my family and myself have missed out on so much from not being able to have the appointed time I'm supposed to have. he is my mini me you look at him and you see a miniature me. he means the world to me. everytime I do get to see him he runs straight to me sometimes knocking me over then we both laugh. I'm trying to get 50/50 custody so he can grow up with his father and for that matter my family in his life