Sober living

Hi everyone, I’m fundraising for 4 months of stable sober living. For the last couple of years I’ve been deeper and deeper in meth, weed, and alcohol addiction. A little over a month ago I came to the Betty Ford Hazelden facility in Newberg, Oregon. Here I have come to understand that I’ve been suffering of the disease of addiction for a much longer time. Decades. And the various traumatic events I’ve lived through since childhood, codependent unhealthy relationships, inability and unwillingness to grieve losses in a healthy manner, discomfort at feeling and accepting emotions like fear; leading to anger and self loathing....all of this has created a downward spiral years in the making with ever mounting pressure that eventually lead to breakdowns, depression, anxiety and more distress than I can convey in this effort to ask for help. I am grateful to have changed health insurance last year to Pacific Source. The only insurance that covers not only the residential program, but also the day treatment program where I have spent the last 5 weeks working on healing myself by facing myself in the mirror and reflecting in my experiences shared with other men and women suffering of the same disease; all following the 12 step program of AA/NA. I am also grateful to have the support of my boyfriend who brought me here after several failed attempts at checking myself in. Grateful to have friends that helped me get started in this journey, all the way to helping me get to this facility; and even though I changed my mind several times and fought my ego and pride until the moment I had to accept defeat. That I couldn’t do this on my own anymore. That I had not been able to manage my life, just pretend I did. I now have 32 days of sobriety. The longest period I can remember since leaving Venezuela almost 18 years ago. The amount I’m asking for is to continue the journey I started on august 4th when I walked into detox. I still need time for therapy, for an intensive outpatient program, for attending daily 12 step meetings and to continue nursing myself back to health: physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. In this place I found my Higher Power. In this place I finally started to heal and love myself. I welcome all questions. Please be mindful that while I’m vulnerably strong, I’m still tender and fragile. If you can also share this link through your social media networks, I might reach my goal that much sooner. My discharge date is September 14th and I hope to have 1/4 of my goal by then so I can cover the moving costs to a sober house west of Portland. With much love, gratitude and hope. Dario