Vetran mother longs to be with Children

I'm a 39 yr old mother of two married to a War Hero Vetran who has lost his way on street drugs and has left me and the kids to fend for our self's. I served in the US ARMY for 11 years. I choose to leave the service to take care of my new baby who is now 8 yrs old and my spouse who was blown up over an afganistan who is now a war hero. If you Google Eric Barrios K9 dog handler you will see what my spouse endured over in combat. He shot up our home in Guam the year I got orders to another place in the US. the military made an educated decision to move him to the states where they took his gun and K9 away from him leaving him in which he considered purposeless. to me and our son didn't feel the same we loved daddy and no matter what anyone thought of him we knew he loved us and he loved people so much he risked his own life receiving two purple hearts. in Eric's combat he feels responsible for loosing two of his closest friends. he suffers from survivors guilt and nothing no one can say will ever make him feel better on what happend over seas. he couldn't drink smoke or shoot his pain away sometimes wanting to end his own life this war hero was.alone in his mind.wishijng he could turn back time. the screams of our new born infant threw him back over there and it was very trying to say the least. I stayed as long as I could with my husband to this day we are legally married. he left me for drugs and another woman one who didn't care if he was who he was or not just joined him in his illicit drug use. he put a protection order on me to where I was arrested if I saw my son. he broke into my home and this time cps took charge and took my son. I was pregnant with my.daughter who I also lost due to not having a home anymore and my spouse and his buddies were.deemed too dangerous for have any children where he is present. I would like to move to a different location to start trying to get my children back. I have tried saving money but that is hard when rent and bills takes what I va disability. I was 100 percent service connected disabled but not making a dr. appt made it to where I receive less then half of what I initially made. I got weak and depressed it seemed that losing 5 homes 3 dogs 2 horses and 2 children wasn't enough for anyone that any where I lived I was robbed my cars stolen and impounded. I am ashamed to admit but I had given up on once was a fairy tale family. both parents became homeless almost overnight and it was like a bad dream. once owning 5 homes at one time 5 cars was now just a asking for help out of my nightmare and a friend told me about this fundraising app. I know things shouldn't get worse but only better so here I am asking for help. thank you for your time of reading and listening and GOD BLESS!!!
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