Family Of Christina Torpie
$86,975 of $90,000 goal
As many of you know for the last 2 years Christina has twice been treated for Breast Cancer. After all the surgeries and Chemo, last month after her most recent scan Christina was told the Cancer returned. This vivacious, Loving and Active, 34 year old Mother of a four year old boy took the news like a real Hero in the eyes of her Husband. Stage 4 Breast Cancer... lesions... Lungs... Liver.... lymph nodes.... words…Just words but this time the disease has progressed. After aggressive Chemo, countless Doctor visits, Scans, Blood work, a double mastectomy and all of the advice of her Doctors, it’s come to this. Christina & her husband walked out of that visit with a renewed sense of faith and determination. Strange right, after hearing your doctor say that she’s exhausted all treatments to try and eradicate this disease. But Giving up is not an option. We have nothing to lose at this point. (As her husband would put it. Balls to the wall!) Help us get there!
This time around Christina, armed with confidence and information went on a search for the best integrative treatment center she could find. Anyone who has been given this kind of news knows the feeling... there is SOOOO much information out there, how do I get to the right Doctor? What is the right treatment? This is my life, I am a mother... I am IMPORTANT!
Blessed with a close friend, who is a survivor herself, Christina was given information about an Integrative treatment center in Chicago. What a relief! We are very thankful for all the blessings that have come our way along this journey. Christina, with the help of her support team, gathered up all the records necessary to get the ball rolling. We are feeling very optomistic this time around.
Cancer has done its damage, no doubt but with strong faith and love, we believe all things are possible. We need your help to GET THERE!!
The Financial burden is real and it’s a MAJOR obstacle Christina faces! Out-of-pocket and travel expenses, Co-Insurance, Deductibles, and prescription costs all add up. It’s an added stress that survivors and folks in treatment know all too well. Already having dealt with the initial Cancer diagnosis in 2014, subsequent surgeries, treatment throughout 2015 and this recent re-occurrence. Financial resources are limited. Christina & her family need your help! Please donate what you can and share with all your friends and family. Your support and prayers make all the difference. The support of generous souls and the power of LOVE . . . Help Christina GET THERE!!!
Feb 16Th seems like a lifetime ago in some ways and in others it feels like yesterday. Feels like Christina was just here with us laughing and smiling, and spreading love to all those around her.
Now a little over 3 months have passed and its time to get back to a normal routine and get back to work. I will be honest.... I have anxiety about going back, but at the same time that anxiety is giving me the fuel needed to get back and lose myself in work.
Colin is seeing a therapist weekly and at first it was difficult. He was not at all into it, but we persevered and I made sure we went every week because it is important that Colin feels comfortable expressing his feelings without fear of upsetting me, upsetting others and making sure he knows he is not alone in his pain and grief. I/we are all here to support and love. Everyone that sees him comments on how well they think he is doing. I am so proud of him. He is such a good boy and really makes me so happy. I love him so much.
We stayed busy since Christinas passing and if you follow me on Instagram (IG - mybiteoutoflife) you can see what we are up to.
I want to Thank you all once again for your loving generosity and for being our support during that incredibly difficult time. This chapter is closed. Its crazy that I am saying that, but it is. Time to move on and if you ever lost someone close you know that guilty feeling you have when you know that its time to move on and get busy living your life again. Christina is our angel watching over us. She is in good hands. I know that. I know she encouraged with our progress and very happy in her final resting place.
We love you all-
Kevin T. & Colin T.
"Life is for the strong. Dying is for the stronger. Facing them both is for the strongest" Unknown
We have visited a children's bereavement center where we are going to mingle with other families who have experienced the loss of a parent or sibling. That will be good for both of us. So far we have had so much support from Colin's School, all the facility there, and all of Colin's friends that each day he goes to school, or has a playdate its like it's own therapy for him. I hope that continues.
I am taking some time off rom work to understand my new role. It is now very obvious to me the Christina was the brains of the family. She really was. Its hard to explain but she was so influential to me. She just knew. Knew how to put together a healthy meal, arrange the way the house is set up, she had this connection with Colin, knew when to push me and when to let me be. We were together for 15 years. She made me a better Man and a better person. We did everything together. I miss calling her to tell her about my day and listening to her tell me about her day. Colin miss's her "Love" and her Hugs. I know exactly what he means.
Day by Day its getting clearer what this whole experience means and the lessons to take away from it. Day By Day I am getting closer to Colin and closer to my feelings. How amazing is it to be able to have time to reflect and rediscover yourself. I feel guilty that I am doing this without Christina, but then I remember her spirit is here. Her Love is everywhere I look. Its in my heart and in Colin's heart, in Colin's smile and in his hugs. Things will get better. Her legacy will live on.
Know that we are doing well and your donations have been helping us tremendously.
As always, thank you so much for your support and prayers. Xx
Kevin - Colin & our Angel in the Sky -Christina-
I want each one of you to know that with each dollar already donated for her Cancer Cure Fund you raised our spirits and gave us hope. At our lowest we had you all to keep us going and knowing you all loved and supported us was enough to believe that life is good and she was deserving of all the good things life had given her. She passed her love for life to our son Colin who is taking the news of his mothers passing like a warrior himself. This will be a process for him and I am committed to see this through hand in hand with him at all times remembering Christina's beautiful smile and amazing attitude. She did not deserve to die like that. No one does. There no words. It comes down to what you believe in the end. What is most important to your soul at the end. Not things and possessions. That all goes out the door in the end. What stays are the memories. The drawings. The cards sent back and forth. The love expressed though kind acts. That is what stays and that is what I want all of you to know is that if Christina could come back and say one thing it would be to remember what is important and to be kind to all beings. We are all one village and we need each other to keep us going in the rough times. I am blessed to have a loving family and loving community. Remember to hug your loved ones. Be there with them. Don't let stupid arguments get in the way of love. Don't let things get in the way of what is important. Family - love - gratitude and presence are what matters.
Many of you have expressed interest to support our family with expenses: medical expenses, funeral costs, child care, bills and other needs for Colin and his future. I want to give you all an opportunity to help us one last time with your loving donations. Any support you can provide would be greatly appreciated. Please keep in mind that any donation, no matter what amount, makes a huge difference. Please continue to support our family by being a friend and by being present in our lives – this is the best gift a person can give. And this picture of Christina is how I want to remember forever. Thank you all.
With love and admiration,
Kevin G. Torpie - Colin A. Torpie
It's a beautiful fall day. My favorite time of year.
It's been a while since I've written an update and a lot has happened. I stopped treatment for almost two months and instead of things getting better they got a bit worse. I went to see a doctor at Columbia, whom I like very much. After doing scans he suggested that I start a clinical trial. It involves chemo and I was not crazy about that but we are working on getting into different trials that do not involve chemotherapy. Innovative trials.
I'm still taking my supplements, eating clean and vegan, and doing anything else I have researched can help.
I started the trial on Friday and have been pretty tired since. Even though my body is tired I am not giving up. I know that one way or another I will have my health again. I have the determination to get through this and I have plans for my life that I must see through.
As always, thank you so much for your support and prayers. Xx
Kevin, You do not know me, but I have following Christy, Colin and yourself through my sweet Nellie. I cannot imagine the pain you are going though right now but please find some peace in knowing she will never be without you and you without her, and never be in pain again. Peace and Love to you and Colin, Mary Howell
Spoke with Dane about you the other night so was also nice to finally find this lost in my inbox. Thoughts are there as always and hope the trial goes well.
Beautifully said....you are an amazing dad....sending love across the miles to you and Colin, Suzie
Its over a month now. I feel im still dreaming. This couldnt have all just happened. 3yrs of trying to enjoy as much time as I could with Christina. Trying to be positive though Im watching her slowly loosing the fight against this cruel and painful disease. Trying to make sense of her being this Ill during the prime of her life of her being a wife, a mother, an aunt, an up and coming photographer and many other gifts she was blessed with. Supporting & Bonding with Colin & Kevin. Trying to help and stay calm when kevin was feeling the pressures of keeping his family as normal as possible. Now im Trying to separate myself a bit from Colin so dad can build on the bond they need to get thru this tough time. I have to say I am so proud of Kevin. He is doing a wonderful job with Colin and with all the other tasks that need to be handled after the loss of Christina. I want to thank all of you for your love and support and friendship. You have change my outlook of the world. There IS a lot of love out there... , Christinas Mom ❤️❤️
Strength and Blessings to you and Conor. Terri Torpie Burgess Your wife is an inspiration to all of us.
P.S. That is a beautiful picture and your smiles are amazing.
I was so sorry to hear the news when Dane told me. My thoughts are with you Kevin and Colin. I don't know you but through this hard time my support was and is still there.
Amazing. I was just thinking about you today! It feels so good to read your post and am especially enjoying the story of Colin's found object. Hope to see you in HOH soon.
Reading your post, it occurs to me that meditation is a supplement you can't buy in a bottle! Until the time comes when you can take that vacation in a tropical paradise, let your meditations be your peaceful place - on tap whenever you want it!
Christina this is really good news! Keep going girl. You have alot prayers coming your way. Much love, linda
Is so amazing to hear you are improving Christina, these are awesome news!!! May God continue to bless you with health and strength. You've got this!!!
I am SO very happy for your progress and have no doubt that your faith and determination and positive thinking have all contributed hugely to your rapid improvement! Bravo you!
Hi Christina, I like your "Humble Warrior" comment! I'm having lunch with Kevin next week. I'll keep the healing thoughts coming your way 24/7!
God Bless You Christina. You are a beautiful inspiration & I think of you & pray for you every single day! XOXO Keep doing what you are doing!!! The power of thought & positive energy creates miracles.
Christina, I just saw this on Westchester moms. I am sending lots of great thoughts to you in Chicago. You were a pleasure to work with in the spring and I look forward to working with you again when you are heathy and ready!!
We will be donning on the 10th on payday girl. I'm so proud of you and want to continue to get those updates from you hearing you positive knowing that YOU WILL BEAT THIS!! We love you!! Bonnie, Glenn, Alexa & MJ. Xoxo
Good for you for looking into an integrative treatment! Cancer is being cured every day. So, blessings on you and your family. And check out "The Truth About Cancer" online to get a sense of the leading edge successful integrative cancer treatments. God bless.