Painting the Hallway of Horror to rebuild my life
So I'm still busting my hump trying to get ahead for my family. Doing everything I possibly can when I can. One of my biggest problem is I don't have any way to thank everyone enough for all their support and encouragement ... until now!
Now I am painting a HALLWAY OF HORRORS in my home using the faces of donators and supporters.
What is the Hallway of HORRORS?
It's the main hallway in my home and it's getting a new paint job featuring the horror portraits of my patreon patrons and anyone else that supports my family and my artwork.
How do you get a place on the Hallway of HORRORS?
It's very simple ... make a donation of any amount. Obviously the larger the donation the larger your spot in the hallway. $25 gets you a nice 4"x6" spot on the wall and you'll get a super duper high res picture of your painting.
I'll be trying to livestream the entire painting of the hallway on youtube ... so that should be fun.
What's the money used for?
If you've been following my story for any length of time you already know that I need to pay off my past property taxes to save my home from property tax sale. I need about $4,300 more to get there. After that the money will start going towards a vehicle so we can drive our boys around to their various baseball games and tournaments this summer. We had a vehicle, then it got wrecked by a careless driver, so now we need to get a new to us used vehicle.
We'll also spend the money on food, bills, and art supplies ...most likely in that order.
If you want to read more about me and my story I left the original information below ... thanks so much for reading and thanks in advance for any help.
My name is Byron, and I am reluctantly creating this gofundme campaign because I need to raise some money to get my family back on track. There have been a series of terrible accidents and incidents over the last few years that are keeping my family trapped in an endless cycle of just scraping by, and it keeps getting harder and harder to make ends meet. Every time I think I have started to improve things and move forward, life throws another brick at me.
The last brick thrown was on October 6, 2018.
I thought life was starting to go my way. I was generating interest in my artwork by drawing people for free as a halloween and inktober promotion. I was getting dozens of emails a day, people were asking to buy the free portrait drawings, potential money was being made ... and then I broke my hip.
wobble wibble fall crash and PAIN! I felt the crunch of bone breaking and I could no longer move.
I lay on the cold cement ground for nearly an hour because I didn't want to call an ambulance. I was hoping my mom could take me to the hospital in her van because it costs $500 to use an ambulance.
In the end the ambulance came and the paramedics did their best to put me on a stretcher and take me away. It has been one of the most painful experiences in my life. I seldom swear in front of my family, but that day I did.
So many thoughts went through my head when I fell, and when I lay on the gurney waiting to see a doctor, and for the first few days after surgery. Even now when I think about the fall I get angry at myself and I can feel tendrils of despair reaching out to me.
But life goes on and I have to as well ... my family needs me and I need them. I know that I am not the only one that is affected by my accident. It has been hard on my kids, and harder still on my wife, who was left alone to manage the house. This last week has been the longest we have been apart in over 22 years. She kept her shit together and rose to the challenge like I have always known her to do. She is my superhero.
So now I need to make money to pay off my ambulance bill, the outstanding vet bill, and a few other bills. It's time for me to work as hard as i can to get my family back on solid financial ground and move forward out of the darkness.
The outstanding vet bill is from when our cat Sebastian ate a massive length of string. You can read about it here. https://plus.google.com/u/0/+byronrempel/posts/VD6tCPaqEm5
We need to get that bill paid off because our dog Sam is getting older and might need to see the vet soon.
The only catch is that I no longer have easy access to the internet and that will make raising money a little more difficult, but not impossible.
I'm not a huge fan of asking for donations but I'm not against them either, obviously. I would really like to give something to those that want to help me and I have a huge pile of artwork that I would happily mail out to anyone that makes a donation of $5 or more. The larger the donation, the more I'll ship.
If you would rather I draw you or your family, just let me know.
Anything I can do to help make this a win win for everyone, I want to do that.
I could go on and on about things I want to do, and the plans that Monica and I have started to formulate together, but I'd rather just SHOW everyone. I get to leave the hospital today, then spend the remainder of the weekend with my wife and kids. Monday the real work begins.
I hope you are able to help me a little, I REALLY want to send my art out in the the world. IF you can't donate, no problem. If you can share my story and help spread the word I would really appreciate that too.
There will be more updates often.
Thanks for reading my story,
You know why?
Because I stopped trying to be in charge of the spending. I gave up all control to my wife.
That's a hard thing to do ... initially. Then it gets easier.
Breaking my hip made giving up control extremely easy. I was completely helpless and homebound for weeks, so it was very easy for Monica to step up to the roll that comes so naturally to her. Mentally it was rough ... coming to the understanding and acceptance that I can not do all the things that I thought I could.
As I said, we were getting caught up.
For the first time in years the mortgage was up to date!
For the first time in months I didn't have to worry about the electric company coming to turn off our power.
For the first time in almost a year internet was returned to our home.
Monica made it happen.
So I pledged to her that I won't waste my time and i'll do anything and everything I can to not waste her hard work.
And things have been going great. I'm making progress on sales, gaining more friends and fans as well as potential clients. I'm live streaming my painting and getting that much closer to being 100 % caught up with everything.
Mail is going out!!
And then mail came back in ... our property taxes are still due and we need them paid by March 15. $4,307.26 is owed. We were on a payment plan of $1000 a month but we had to break it to get ahead elsewhere. There might have been a better way, but that's to late to consider now. I'm also pretty sure that we can call them and talk and probably set up a payment plan ... but I want to get rid of this once and for all.
I'm doing my best not to let this wreck my day but I know it is going to probably wreck my mom's day, as she has her name on our mortgage and will be getting the tax arrears letter too.
The past due amount on taxes is my fault from all the years I tried to control the finances. Depression and alchohol abuse got in the way.
Monica will say we're both to blame and that's true but I still mostly blame me.
Anyways ... I'm on a mission to wipe that mistake out and I need your help. I'm begging you for a dontation of any amount and in return I can only offer my artistic services, now or in the future. If you're in to owning artwork I have been posting a lot of it all over the internet. If you're looking for something special, let me know.
If you can't help financially maybe you can share it with people that can.
Any bit of help will help and I'll strive to pay it forward any way I can.
Thanks for reading.
probably going to be looking in to social assistance or something to help make ends meet.
happy 2019 everyone ... more updates soon
Both of our cats are doing fine right now but Sam just keeps getting older. He's strong and healthy for an 11 year old dog but he has developed a lump on one side. It isn't painful to him, at least he doesn't seem to mind it being touched, but it's something we have to watch going forward.
Financial News ...
Not sure what kind of a Christmas we'll have this year. Thankfully the kids are super understanding.
We're still behind on some of the bills and the very idea of buying gifts is very stressful. I'm busting my ass trying to finish commissions and sell existing work, and i am making some headway, though it's very slow.
No vehicle, no home internet ... this 43 year old is relying heavily on his 70 year old mom.
That little bit of FACT is a real mind fuck for me ... lots of internalizing and then self loathing ... if i think about it to much it starts to overwhelm me with bad feelings.
So it's best not to dwell.
in other news ...
I have decided to separate some parts of my online life. I will keep this site running as a financial/health/pet information update site and the place where i can take donations ... and I will use my patreon.com/zombiecats for the artwork updates and www.thewayofthezombie.com for art sales
more news - no ambulance bill yet ... they're probably waiting until just before christmas ;)
So lets see, im still broke with more bills than money, my hip is healing but i still have very bad leg issues that will most likely be problematic in the future, the wife and kids are doing well, as are the cats. The dog might have an issue though.
IF there is anyone out there that would like to help my situation, please do so and let me know what I can do to show you how much I appreciate your help.
In other news, I'm trying hard to get back online permanently. If morenet could hurry up I would get free internet, but they might take months or longer, so I'm trying to raise enough cash to pay off an outstanding debt with the phone company so we can get their service back. It's a bill that needs to be paid anyways, so I might as well admit to it, get it paid, and move on with my life ... a life that includes high speed internet at home.
How much do I need to make this miracle happen?
Yeah ... a shitty high bill that I allowed to become a shitty high bill because of reasons no one really wants me to get in to here. :)
If you really really want to know, ask and I'll tell you a story about depression, booze, fear and self loathing. It's more boring than you think ... good thing it's in the past.
Alright ... Monday rant done ... go buy some stuff from www.thewayofthezombie.com to help support my struggle to get back online ... or don't.
free will is a powerful thing.