Angel's days

Our beautiful baby angel found her wings and she fell a sleep on the 16.7.19 her last kick was at 1.17am and I gave birth to her on the 19th of July 2019 (the nightmare began when I was due to have my consultants appointment on Tuesday 17th at 10.25am when my doctor couldnt find her heart beat it was like a dream my heart stopped with hers for that moment she was so healthy and all my scan where perfect I had amazing pregnancy she made me love me and she also made me grow afder he couldn't find it and my body come out of shock I then was told to go straight to the hospital where they scanned me and told me again theres no heart beat I ran out of the room i could breath my heart was hurting I ran into the hall and my legs went so did my body i woke up in the midwife arms where I then collapsed again how can I as a mother let my baby leave this world alone how can I say good bye when her blood pumped throw my veins!! Afder all this i was then told it would be another 2 days before I could deliver her so I went home and tryes to process this then I couldn't eat because shes kick when I eat I could bath because she loved bath time I felt like I couldn't breath I couldn't touch my bump because I knew she wasnt there. So two days had passed it was now the 18th of July where I was set off into labour where my princess give me the best labour ever my waters went at 4.00am and she was out by 4.02am 14 hours and my angel was here in my arms where I was praying shed cry but nothing I felt like my body let my angel down my placenta was torn and came straight afder her she looked so peaceful 10 hours later the rest of her placenta was here noone in this world such suffer the pain of loosing there child or even baby my heart is broken and my mind is blank I will never be able to feed her dress her or comfort her when she needs me i will never be able to protect her or even just kiss her good night and tell her I love her so on my babys big day I want her to have the best because she truly deserves it thank you for reading my story (angel grace leigh Molloy-marsh mummy will spend the rest of her life missing you wiggle missing you kick and missing you keeping me awake I love you with all my heart and soul and miss you more every single day) xxxxxxxxx till we become one again at the golden gates my princess) i love you so much xxxxxx