Sleepless in New Mexico, a family of five in need.

Hello we are the Thomas's.

You know those moments in life where you feel completely hopeless no matter how hard you try to rise above it? We are going through one of those moments right now. It's not something we would ever want with a new baby on the way. But it's here, looking at us straight in the face and we want nothing but the stress to be gone, the sleepless nights to stop and the battle to be over.

We have always worked hard for what we have so doing this is really hard for us but we feel so hopeless, it's our last resort.

About six months ago I had a break down. I guess you can call it a mommy melt down. This really had nothing to do with my husband or my children but with my serotonin levels. Most doctors would call this anxiety and throw a pill in your mouth. I knew what I needed and a pill wasn't it. I needed a break. And my husband supported that completely. He could see that I needed to separate myself for a while, to breathe deeply, to be around other adults, and to decompress. 

So that's what I did. I found a job at a lavender farm. Breathing in lavender while serving kind people gourmet coffee on a beautiful farm in the country is exactly what I needed. My husband was working overtime at his job that he was highly valued at, for almost a year. He didn't want to leave and neither did anyone he worked with but he sacrificed for me. He went from full time to two days on my off days. He took care of all the kids while I worked and he did a great job. Some could say better than I did. He is a wonderful husband who is supportive, loving and so thoughtful. 

In the end, his job needed a full time person. He was driving an hour to and from work and working ten hour shifts but they needed more. They took him off the schedule and he was devastated. And so was I. 

Being that I was working on a farm, my job was seasonal. So my husband looked for a part time job while I worked so he could work on the days I had off(Sunday and Monday). He looked and looked but when you have a set schedule, they just don't like that. They want an open, work on weekends and holidays kind of schedule. 

Then we found out we had a bun in the oven. That just added to the pressure as time crept closer and closer to my job ending. Another thing that made it difficult was that my husband's wallet was stolen months ago and in order to get another copy he needed his birth certificate. Which we did not have a copy of. So we sent in for it right away. They told us it would take up to two months and that it was not a guarantee we would receive it (this is the website saying this). So we waited and we called. They had no record and so we tried again. We waited and waited and now we can't wait anymore. My husband needs an ID to get a job.

It's almost December. We have both been looking for a job but mostly my husband because he wants to work, he wants to support us, and I'm five months pregnant. We have been at this place for almost three years. We have always paid our rent and now that we are late this month our landlord is telling us we will have to find a new place. Really!?  We are stressed and lost and feeling hopeless. We are good, hard working parents that feel stuck and scared. Where will we go? 
 
We just need a little help for a little bit. We promise to pay it forward.