Help Me Get My Son Home

In 2013 I gave birth to this beautiful boy Bryson. He was my rock at that time because at that time I was at my lowest point in life. Unfortunately i was heavy into drug addiction and I ended up using drugs while I was pregnant with him. I tried to get myself together but couldn't get a grip on my addiction. I was selfish and because of that my son was takin from me by the state and placed with someone I knew. I'll never forget the pain I went through that day they took him and still to this day it replays over and over in my head. I was arrested and sent to prison after that and during my incarceration I tried to make contact multiple times with the family that had him. They would never respond. That family ended up getting awarded guardianship of my son and only after that went through did they finally contact me and told me the state wouldn't allow them to talk to me. I knew by the time I was released I would have a fight on my hands trying to get him back. I can't take back what I did but since my release in May of 2014 I have completely done a 180 with my life. I am now a servant of God. I've maintained fulltime employment working at an amazing ministry called Mission Gate. I've taking every life-skill class including parenting, which I took a few different times just because I wanted to, I have done hair follicle tests and have done everything the courts have asked of me. It is now 4 years later, thousands of dollars spent between attorneys, court fees, gas expense driving over 300 miles every other weekend to see my son, hotel costs and so much more and I still do not have my rights back. Just recently we took my case to trial and even though I was found to be willing fit and able to take care of my son, the judge denied my termination of guardian request. It hurts me so bad to know that I have gone above and beyond to turn my life around and for 5 years I have remained drug free, bought my own home, got custody of my other son back and still yet the guardians will not let me have my youngest back. I now have to appeal my case in hopes that another judge will see differently which is why I need the public's help. Financially this has takin a toll on me. I am a single mom working 2 jobs and trying to support me and my family. It is very hard. So I am asking for help financially so that I can appeal my case and get my baby boy home where he belongs. Anything will help whether its money for gas or for my court case. I have to travel a long distance for court because i live in St. Louis and they are in southest Missouri. Please pass this message on to as many people as you know. My family is not complete without Bryson there and it's ripping me and my oldest son Austin apart. I will continue to fight for him until he is back with me for good. God bless you all for taking the time to read my story.