My Cancer Diagnosis/Plea for Help
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My Dear Friends and Clients,
Many of you have noticed that I have not been writing many articles this year outside of my monthly forecasts. And I have stopped creating the annual reports.
Well, I am sorry to say that it was because of some health challenges I have been facing, the most serious of which is a recent diagnosis of throat cancer.
I have been looking deeply into the physical, psychological and karmic reasons as to why I have been confronted with this now. This kind of analysis is something I have been doing for clients in these kinds of situations for many years. Now I have to ‘take my own medicine’ as it were, and I could share some of those thoughts and insights.
One pretty direct message came when I was sitting in the front seat of my truck in front of my doctor’s office. I had had a biopsy for a growth on my neck. They then called me and asked me to come in person to talk to the doctor to hear the results. I know that this was therefore not going to be good news.
I had been ‘hoping for the best, but preparing for the worst.’ Sitting in my truck, before going in to hear the diagnosis, I decided to do what is called ‘bibliomancy’ where you open a book for a message. The Master Hilarion says that angels will arrange the page for you. I have in the past received amazing, direct messages doing this.
On this day all I had with me was a Sedona magazine where I used to advertise my services. This magazine generally focuses on channeled information.
Here is the paragraph my eyes fell upon:
“The answer is that this invasion was ultimately recognized and accepted in the council of enlightened beings that holds the purpose and plan for all life on Earth, as part of the higher plan. This decision was made after much careful debate in the Shamballa council with the assumption that struggling against these dark forces would strengthen and empower humanity. “
That kind of floored me.
This experience has already humbled and deepened me as a person. As they say “You no longer sweat the small stuff.”
I can say I am not terribly afraid to die. I don’t particularly want to suffer a lot on the way but even that, if I have to, I accept it must be part of my karmic releasing. Saturn recently went over my Scorpio Ascendant of which Hilarion says:
The Scorpio Ascendant is given not to add these traits necessarily, but rather to cause the individual to attract into his life, by the natural laws of affinity, certain experiences of a karmic nature which will allow him to set aside a portion of the large karmic burden which he usually brings into incarnation with him.”
He seems to be saying that those of us with Scorpio Rising have taken on a little more than the average amount of karma in this life.
My greatest regret if I am to leave this body sooner than I expected, besides the personal sadness with my family and friends, is to not having finished some of the books I was hoping to leave behind before I pass from this earth plane. I fear not being able to pass on the skills and knowledge I have accumulated through the course of my life.
In fact one of the symbolic messages I feel coming from this is that it is time for me to stop focusing on speaking my truth in lectures, workshops and readings and to finally go more into the retreat space I have been craving to go more into writing. Of course I would still do readings by phone, but I would like to stop traveling so much.
I also had the vision of creating a part-time guest house/retreat center here at my place in the mountains of Northeast Washington 10 miles from the Canadian Border.
Well, obviously, with this recent diagnosis I have a whole other trip to deal with .
I have been looking into various options. And of course everybody has already been sharing with me their favorite miracle or easy cure for cancer.
I have already invested into two inert gas therapy devices recommended by Hilarion to dispel the energy fields or entities that enter the body to create the rapid cell multiplication of cancer.
The fact remains that the 5-year survival rate for head and neck cancer is pretty low.
I would prefer to avoid the conventional treatment of surgery, radiation and chemotherapy, sometimes disparagingly referred to as ‘slash, burn and poison,’ although I am not closed to the possibility that that is the better route for me.
In my search for an alternative treatment I have been most encouraged by what I have read about a clinic in Germany, the Klinik St. George, which is connected to an actual hospital and uses both conventional and alternative treatments. The alternative treatments seem to be the most comprehensive and advanced that I have seen.
My thoughts are that I would really like to give the alternative treatment a chance first, and if that doesn’t work, I would be in a better position to accept the conventional treatments.
Either way I am obviously entering a pretty challenging period of my life. The clinic in Germany figures you need to stay 3 to 8 weeks on average, which they do not fully determine until after you arrive.
It costs around $5000 a week to stay there. To be honest my financial situation cannot support that kind of expense. I was only recently encouraged to even look in this direction because of a dear friend’s offer of some financial support to partially help me. This made me think of this ‘Go Fund Me’ opportunity to help to raise some of the additional funds I will be needing.
I have long felt that the internet, and especially these collective group sharings and connections are an indication of the emergence of the coming Aquarian Age, an age of brother/sisterhood and group consciousness.
The fact is, even if I decide to go the conventional route, I will have some significant expenses and my physical state will be pretty whacked. I, obviously, won’t be using my voice for a long time and so will be unable to do readings to earn my living for some time.
I would really like to be able to take advantage of the more natural option, but I am afraid that I would need some help to be able to do that without creating a whole lot of more stress on myself than I already have.
I do hope that I can get through this, live long enough to write some books and, hopefully, serve many of you in my guest house my famous home-made spaghetti and maybe go kayaking down the Kettle River.
Love and Blessings,
Steffan
Many of you have noticed that I have not been writing many articles this year outside of my monthly forecasts. And I have stopped creating the annual reports.
Well, I am sorry to say that it was because of some health challenges I have been facing, the most serious of which is a recent diagnosis of throat cancer.
I have been looking deeply into the physical, psychological and karmic reasons as to why I have been confronted with this now. This kind of analysis is something I have been doing for clients in these kinds of situations for many years. Now I have to ‘take my own medicine’ as it were, and I could share some of those thoughts and insights.
One pretty direct message came when I was sitting in the front seat of my truck in front of my doctor’s office. I had had a biopsy for a growth on my neck. They then called me and asked me to come in person to talk to the doctor to hear the results. I know that this was therefore not going to be good news.
I had been ‘hoping for the best, but preparing for the worst.’ Sitting in my truck, before going in to hear the diagnosis, I decided to do what is called ‘bibliomancy’ where you open a book for a message. The Master Hilarion says that angels will arrange the page for you. I have in the past received amazing, direct messages doing this.
On this day all I had with me was a Sedona magazine where I used to advertise my services. This magazine generally focuses on channeled information.
Here is the paragraph my eyes fell upon:
“The answer is that this invasion was ultimately recognized and accepted in the council of enlightened beings that holds the purpose and plan for all life on Earth, as part of the higher plan. This decision was made after much careful debate in the Shamballa council with the assumption that struggling against these dark forces would strengthen and empower humanity. “
That kind of floored me.
This experience has already humbled and deepened me as a person. As they say “You no longer sweat the small stuff.”
I can say I am not terribly afraid to die. I don’t particularly want to suffer a lot on the way but even that, if I have to, I accept it must be part of my karmic releasing. Saturn recently went over my Scorpio Ascendant of which Hilarion says:
The Scorpio Ascendant is given not to add these traits necessarily, but rather to cause the individual to attract into his life, by the natural laws of affinity, certain experiences of a karmic nature which will allow him to set aside a portion of the large karmic burden which he usually brings into incarnation with him.”
He seems to be saying that those of us with Scorpio Rising have taken on a little more than the average amount of karma in this life.
My greatest regret if I am to leave this body sooner than I expected, besides the personal sadness with my family and friends, is to not having finished some of the books I was hoping to leave behind before I pass from this earth plane. I fear not being able to pass on the skills and knowledge I have accumulated through the course of my life.
In fact one of the symbolic messages I feel coming from this is that it is time for me to stop focusing on speaking my truth in lectures, workshops and readings and to finally go more into the retreat space I have been craving to go more into writing. Of course I would still do readings by phone, but I would like to stop traveling so much.
I also had the vision of creating a part-time guest house/retreat center here at my place in the mountains of Northeast Washington 10 miles from the Canadian Border.
Well, obviously, with this recent diagnosis I have a whole other trip to deal with .
I have been looking into various options. And of course everybody has already been sharing with me their favorite miracle or easy cure for cancer.
I have already invested into two inert gas therapy devices recommended by Hilarion to dispel the energy fields or entities that enter the body to create the rapid cell multiplication of cancer.
The fact remains that the 5-year survival rate for head and neck cancer is pretty low.
I would prefer to avoid the conventional treatment of surgery, radiation and chemotherapy, sometimes disparagingly referred to as ‘slash, burn and poison,’ although I am not closed to the possibility that that is the better route for me.
In my search for an alternative treatment I have been most encouraged by what I have read about a clinic in Germany, the Klinik St. George, which is connected to an actual hospital and uses both conventional and alternative treatments. The alternative treatments seem to be the most comprehensive and advanced that I have seen.
My thoughts are that I would really like to give the alternative treatment a chance first, and if that doesn’t work, I would be in a better position to accept the conventional treatments.
Either way I am obviously entering a pretty challenging period of my life. The clinic in Germany figures you need to stay 3 to 8 weeks on average, which they do not fully determine until after you arrive.
It costs around $5000 a week to stay there. To be honest my financial situation cannot support that kind of expense. I was only recently encouraged to even look in this direction because of a dear friend’s offer of some financial support to partially help me. This made me think of this ‘Go Fund Me’ opportunity to help to raise some of the additional funds I will be needing.
I have long felt that the internet, and especially these collective group sharings and connections are an indication of the emergence of the coming Aquarian Age, an age of brother/sisterhood and group consciousness.
The fact is, even if I decide to go the conventional route, I will have some significant expenses and my physical state will be pretty whacked. I, obviously, won’t be using my voice for a long time and so will be unable to do readings to earn my living for some time.
I would really like to be able to take advantage of the more natural option, but I am afraid that I would need some help to be able to do that without creating a whole lot of more stress on myself than I already have.
I do hope that I can get through this, live long enough to write some books and, hopefully, serve many of you in my guest house my famous home-made spaghetti and maybe go kayaking down the Kettle River.
Love and Blessings,
Steffan
Organizer
Steffan Vanel
Organizer
Curlew, WA
