Broken but Not Destroyed

For the past 4 years I, Kristin Marie Kology was living in a very toxic & volatile household with my verbally, mentally, psychologically, emotionally, physically abusive, very violent, unpredictable, & dangerous, ex boyfriend, Scott Michael Colen/44/Stockton, CA. I lived under control, isolation, & fear, of my own life & those closest to me.

2/29/2016 was the final beating that I received from him. I was screaming & pleading for my life that was being brutally, savagely, & bloodily, beaten out of me by him, while his parent's stood by & offered little to no help. (It was me who was able to finally & frantically call 911 because, Delores & Donald Colen didn't want to have to bail their monster of a son out of jail again. They are unbelievably enabling ). I am now safe with family & friend's on the other side of the country. However, that does not change the fact that I am still living in fear & that I deserve justice.  Hopefully that will be granted to me with my case that is currently pending.

As a survivor I'm learning to piece myself & life back together, one day at a time. Part of the result of my final violent beating, is that I have severe vision loss in my left eye, a fractured nose, & I have also been diagnosed with PTSD from domestic violence.

Due to a combination of medical & a variety of other expenses that have compiled & flooded my finances  as a direct result of all I have been through, it is another major issue that I am facing. I have applied for Victim's Assistance & am still waiting to find out if I'm approved (which can be a lengthy process). Even with that, I am still in a major bind & any amount that is donated will go towards helping me get back on track.

Another part of the control & isolation I was faced with for the past 4 year's  was not working (believe me, I tried very hard to obtain work, but was always threatened with verbal &/or physical abuse). Plus once my health quickly dwindled, I was either confined to bed, having surgery, at the doctor's office, etc, & would not have been able to hold a job.  Not to mention, I could not hide all my signs of physical abuse. As it turns out, several of the health issues I was faced with were results of my PTSD. Since being away from him, some of my health problems have cleared up &/or are improving. 

I would love to be able to return to work, but at this time it is not a possibility & won't be for a while. I need to get myself healthy, happy, & secure, before I can worry about much of anything else. I'm not putting a time limit on anything because, I need to be patient & do what's honestly best for me.

While I have sought out other forms of assistance, this is truly what is going to be the most effective for me during this trying time. In the near future, I will be giving back to those in similar situations & will also be focusing on being an advocate for strengthening & changing the punishments for those guilty of these heinous crimes.

Any dollar amount donated &/or share of my campaign is a huge help & sincerely appreciated. I wish more than anything that I did not have this need, but it is my truth. 

My scars & bruises may be faded, but the emotional & psychological damage is still present, especially due to my PTSD (which I am being treated for). I'm very lucky to be alive & surrounded by those who truly love & support me.