Alex Ruiz funeral

This is my son Alex Ruiz he decided to take his life on 7-25-16 . I am besides myself trying to figure out why it's so hard I see him everywhere I look I don't know how he thought we would be OK to live without him . I'm asking for help for his funeral me and his dad live pay check to pay check and do not have the funds to give him the best he deserves please help our family in this time of need thank u