Dear Wonderful People!!!!,
I want to thank you for your donations. I have stopped the fundraising but I am continuing working on a project that only a few of you knew about. I am buying a building here in Utica, and working on the loan process for it. I will keep you updated.
Yes, I do intend to honour the rewards, and I will be sending everything out by the 15th of November, 2013.
We had a tragic and sudden death in the family, which I attended. The money raise however, is in an escrow account. Thanks so much for your faith in me!!!!
I want to thank everyone for donating funds to this fundraiser, and we are not accepting any more monies for this fundraiser at this time. But we are keeping it up, as a way to post and let folks know about what we at xenoikos bread company is doing to address the needs of growing a social enterprise.
Again, thanks. We have decided on a direction that is both very exciting, and logical. We will let you know in the coming days...
So today I woke up thinking about a story from India concerning Siddartha Gotama, known as a religious reformer of the Vedic-Brahmic Tradition that led to Buddhism.
But I woke up from this dream: That friends and I were attending to a parade, a parade that was in a time warped Brooklyn full of italians, irish, spanish, blacks, and in the burnt out abandoned tenement there were our current hip hop stars in the window-pane less windows, waving to the people on the street, poor whites and blacks in tattered clothes, who were enthusiastedly hurraying the rolls royces from perhaps the 30's and early 40's, the people in them were dressed from that era, and european and dark skinned as well, but mostly european in composition. And the emotional patina of the dream was sepia-greys and browns...the tenements had been bombed out, the people like from that scene in the three-penny opera....and when I woke up...I remember a passage from the life of Siddartha Gotama; a prince of India who had renounced all the trappings of his birth and went throughout India trying to reform the caste system. (I mean that is one way to look at his life). And the story I remember was that of his encounter with an untouchable. He, by the untouchable, was recognized as a Brahmin...and he was trying to impart to the untouchable his understanding that the caste system was a arbitrary custom of the land not based in reality...but the untouchable was so frightened...that he almost drowned himself trying to not be touched by Gotama, so there is this comical scene of the untouchable retreating in all haste to the deadly center of the ganges river, with Gotama in hot pursuit, trying to impart to the untouchable that he was just as imparted with divine dignity as he himself was....
and the story as comical as it seemed to me then, caused me to weep....and the weeping was very deep, and the effect of the story followed me for days, weeks, months, even i must say until now...years...because in the untouchable...I recognised myself...the way I was socialize to think of myself as less than...unworthy of even self-care...that is how thoroughly my custodians had taught me to value myself....so that coming out of that I either over-compensated, but mostly I could not hide from myself and from perceptive others, just how unworthy I felt.
And women and men who have grown up with toxic moms and dads, have had to deal with their enculturation by these toxic family members, and enough of these kinds of families in general, breeds a society that worships toxic displays of and toxic expression of power.
But living as though you are an untouchable or anoverlord to an untouchable is not the only way to live: they are not the only two roles. and I must say, since becoming a Christian, I have been taught a most marvelous way to be in the world, even toward those who are opposed to me, even those who subscribe to the notion of the soft-caste system that is the United States. Christ as King, never renounced His divinity nor the "trappings" of His Kingliness, the Uncreated could do this no more than you or i could renounce the atttibutes of our humanness. But He did humble Himself to us, so that we may be able to more fully become like Him, as He originally designed and created us....
But so far, we are so far off the mark...we worship things because we believe they have power...and we...as a result...sit back as abuses of power are executed throughout the world....the true nature thereof...distorted so that we cannot see what is truly going on...so I pray for the people of Egypt, I pray for the Coptic Christians, and the Muslims...I pray for the Priest who are being murdered...their parishes, and their laity who are being destroyed and decimated....I pray for the Muslim people plunged in the unrest by the forces only very few truly understand....led helpless along...incited...even by those people who say they support the democratic process. Democracy was shown in the land: that which was institutionalized, and that which was grassroots. In our Constitution of the United States, we recognize both, one is not so more keenly enshrined as in the 2nd Bill of Rights. so Please my people....Please...pray for the soul of Egpyt...my prayers with Pope Tawadros and with those Enlightened Muslims so tired of the bloodshed.
It is hard to receive timely and regular medical and dental care if you are low income. Many of us take years to get basic dental and health care. And the annual cleanings and checkups are necessary to maintain healthy teeth and healthy bodies. Did you know that plaque on the teeth can lead to diabetes, heart disease and other ailments? Even higher instances of stroke? For this reason it is important. Many of you may remember just a few years ago, that it was impossible to get low income dental care.
A non-profit in Brooklyn tried to address this problem, but waits were up to a year, for necessary but non-emergency care. I'm so for the Regional Primary Care Network Clinic here in Utica. Because they have a dental component, and they take anyone regardless of income, I was able to begin having regular dental care. After many years of not being able to, of trying to buy insurance and having to wait almost two years before the insurance would allow me to use it.
In between going back and forth to N.Carolina, i manage to be able to make visits to the dentist...(crying each time-because dentist visits are traumatic, but thanks to Dr. Champen my dentist, and to Elena Karptsov, my dental hygientist, I'm starting to feel more at ease). So last time I was there they cleaned my teeth. So happy, and feel so much better, and flu like symptoms are gone, thanks to the anti-biotics.
Everyday is a challenge, We find a way to walk through the day...Every day is a blessing. So...we are still conducting our fundraiser....Please share and please comment as I would love to hear from all of you that visit.
Thanks so much!
Why xenOikos Bread Company
Fundraiser Ends 31 August 2013. There is still time to donate!
Why XenOikos Bread Company
Now when you pledge with your funding source, you will get treats! I know many of you have been asking for bread...but my breads have no additives or preservatives in them. Just basically flour, salt, water, yeast...and olive oil, herbs or honey. That is it my friend. So at this time, unless i can freeze dry the bread somehow it is not offered as gifts for donation across state line for that reason, and for that reason, i have not been able to comply with request to send y'all some.
although i do want to.
But the tarts even without preservatives and additives have a longer "shelf" life that can withstand travel to other states. So Im offering those treats. so please donate...and thanks so much!!!!
Social Business vs. Non Profit.
Non Profits serve a needed function in our society. Many people have benefited from them. Applying a modified traditional business model to the non-Profit model, that is , creating a Social Enterprise, a business entity that makes a profit in order to serve the community in which it resides, can help service entities, really give back to the community.
Social Enterprises will contibute to the tax base of the locality that it operates in. It will add jobs to the community, and it can be flexible to the changing needs of the community. You won't have to worry about it closing shop and moving to a new locale because of wage and tax breaks. If a "walmart" moves in, it won't buckle up, it can adjust...and find ways to survive, because it is not in the business to make a profit, but to provide a service. It's here to stay, during the bad times and the good.
So I cannot repeat this phrase enough: The Social Business pays taxes, and provides jobs. It helps its targeted constituency, and beyound its first initial need of start-up funding...it is self-sustaining! That means it can grow, and provide its service efficiently, and be responsive to the needs of its community. That is why social enterprises are a win/win, for the individuals it helps and the communities it lives in.
The tax break that you get as a donor in this initial campaign, is that you are helping not only xenOikos Bread Company to help others, but the community it resides in. You are helping women who have been emotionally traumatized get the help they need....and not cookie cutter help, but help that is tailored to their emotional and mental realities,the wounds that hold them back ... we want to facilitate the healing of those wounds.
It is amazing to see folks who you think are so lost in themselves be able to open up and blossom when they have the right support system.
The system as it exists now encourages, not retards unhealthy behaviours. What is need is a wholistic approach. You probably won't believe it but this country has places in it- in both the urban and rural setting- that are akin to third world countries. And they are isolated, and the people survive in ways that are degrading to the soul. This is the United States. How can that be?
But you may say derisely, they have welfare! My response is that being on the so-called system, wherein folks are supposed to get on their feet, the way it operates in practice is machiavellian in that it punishes you for every good step you make toward self-suffiency. It's so hard listening to the stories of women who find themselves in the cycle of dependency. The help you get actually keeps you in a state of dependency. It's a common blight that afflicts the poor: white, black, hispanic...no matter your race...if you get sucked into the cycle, it is like a malestrom, it's a herculean task to free oneself from, especially if you don't have familial supports. And worse, you are vilified for being on it, while at the same time you are predated by members in your community, and outside of it, to engage in degrading behaviours just to survive.
It's a sad story, unfortunately a true one....and there are segments of the society who don't want to see the truth of it. xenOikos Bread Company wants to be able to help these women, their children and the men in their lives to lead healthier lives, and to break the degrading cycle of poverty. You can help with even your $5.00 donation. thanks so much!
Next Post: How a Macro-Economist from Armenia gave me the initial ideal to bake bread to raise funds for the HeartSoul Ekonomia Institute.
a subset of the 99%
So we are only at 8.8% of our goal! So 456 of you donating 5.00, will help us reach our goals! Helping Women live sustainable lives with dignity! Giving back to the community! Being self-supportive!
Thanks for your support and time!
xenia lynn teresa williams
Baking Bread, Tarts, and Cookies is satisfying. Here are some of the baked goods made from my little studio apartment here in Utica.
All in A Morning's Baking!
It's a common truism that expanding a business requires funding! The Accounting Equation actually is a symbol for the business developed during medieval times. The philosophy it represents is that a business is a closed system that initially needs outside funds to 'seed' to help it grow, to help it start up. this is the same principle around ancient approaches to marriage. the families of the two newlyweds were responsible for giving them the resources they to get started in their lives as a household.
This principle has been applied to commercial endeavours, and in modern times applied to various business structures. Crowdsourcing, ie, crowdfunding is one of the recent funding vehicles that are available to micro-businesses as many micro-businesses in the United States do not qualify for the programs that are out there: Either you have to belong to another geographic locality, not in the U.S.
The U.S. in is not a third world country, so the funding criteria are different for folks struggling to reach out of poverty...even if their living situations is third world. Such is life. Crowdfunding, helps folks like me, who don't meet traditional U.S. criteria to get funding, be able to obtain the same kind of leverage that is available to those offered in countries designated as "developing".
Thank God for fundraising online, because it increases the reach of folks who are struggling, and also it gives another avenue to immediately address business needs!!!! In this day and age, we need to increasingly rely on innovative and self -sustaining ways to reach out to folks....nonetheless: that requires community...and expanding ones community is a key component of this type of fundraising!
xenOikos Bread Company exists to provide a service , to be a funding source for the HeartSoul Ekonomia Institute, which helps mentally and emotionally unstable women learn skills that will help them survive, not only survive, but to thrive.
This video may be a bit too raw...
If you have been traumatized as a child, you know first hand that it can become an emotional imprint, of how you internally and subconsciously relate to eyour environment. In short, you can live in a constant state of terror and mistrust of people.
My spiitual mom once blessed me to work on a political issue by adding: Use your natural inability to trust people....be careful!
So it was interesting that she, and not only she, was able to pick up on that...
But that inability to trust can also make it difficult to successfully live a wholesome, and wholistic life in the world. Your radar of who to trust can become miscued. And worse, if you were taught early on that you were worthless and not to amount to anything, and that your failure to thrive would be pleasing to others...That is a template you have to fight as well.
I was talking to a person yesterday...and during the conversation he said to me...."I know I'm not a loser, because I'm made in the image of Christ" It was a poignant moment for me....and it reaffirmed an incident: When I was living in a homeless shelter in New York. be and the other residents somehow fell into a conversation about God. and I remember telling them: But we are all humans, made in the image of Christ! And they looked at me...in a wondrous manner...of joy!!! and self-realisation...It was a moment of clarity for me...but for them...also it was a life line, as when I realised that truth, many years ago! So join me in my quest to help folks, especially wimminfolk, who have been traumatize and suffer mental and emotional instability learn to love themselves, and know themselves as worthy beings to be alive!!!! and not only to be alive...but to thrive!!!!
Just 14 of you donating 10.00 will help us with our 500 mark this week! Share with your friends! I hope you don't mind these posts that seem to be didactic: they are a way to break up the asking a bit, and to give you a glimpse into how we approach advocacy for women with mental and emotional instabilities.
Have any of you interacted with the mental illness of a loved one or with your own...You know how hard it is to be heard sometimes. We are an organization that want to help women be heard in a wholistic way, and in a way that contribute to positive outcomes.
So donate your 10 dollars. Thanks so much!
Positive way to use "you" statements that invite resolution: 'You' seem to me to be overwhelmed, distracted, overworked, burnt out. 'We've' had no meaningful conversations in about a year. You-statements said in these ways, I think , gives the receiver an opportunity to agree or disagree with the perception presented by you. A dialogue can then happen which allows for addressing the issue.
However, a third person at some point may have to be brought in...and that is okay....You can use constructive "you" statements then. In my case: the supervisor agreed. So it was a win/win all the way around, and everything was handled positively!
It wasn't negatively confrontational this exchange but it did get us to a problem solving stage.
So that is my sharing of the day concerning dealing with an non-working therapeutic relationship.
xenoikos gofundme video: backstory
The Video Is Complete!!!!!! Will Upload Later Today!
Okay.....for those of you who are having issues with your therapist...first the backstory:
I was having an issue with my therapist. It seemed like an hostile relationship. for a year i put up with it....thank God, i had the Church to go to...always restorative, at the least. But still...I'm walking wounded, I mean on a scale 1-10 of how bad last year was...it was -100.
So the first step I did was I politely brought up this with the therapist. She dismissed, called me a pushover, and minimalize.
Then one day at the library, me and another patron got to talking...and realised we had the same therapist, and this was hugely comforting.
So i went to the therapist and discussed this again.
Not mentioning that I was aware of other interactions.
Because she did not take me seriously, I went to her supervisor who did take me seriously and i was assigned another therapist. Who I just love!!!!!
they are overworked, and have too many clients...but
you don't have to put up with rude behaviour.
xenOikos Bread Company wants to empower women through the HeartSoul Ekonomia Institute.
so please donate and share!!
Today made lemoncillo cookies! I made the lemoncillo myself!!!!! Now I just want to let you know that co-host Linda and I found a great way to enjoy Toni Child's song Zimbabwe! With fresh ground coffee "zimbabwe" and red current Tarts. Yumm! You can get the coffee from Utica Roasting Coffee Company.
We are off to a great start this week, much bteter. Now, I know many of you lead very busy lives, but just take a second and donate just $5.00 to $10.00, or $25.00, even, or YES, I'd love to see you at the Irredenta Art Opening! That would be the ultimate in awesome!
I'm feeling encouraged this morning! So let raise the goal to 500...an end goal for the next few days!!!!!
Please Donate and Share!!!!! Video forthcoming in the evening today!!!!
Share! I have a happy keyboard! ;)
Very amazing! We just received two donations! So we are almost at 10% of the end goal. Thanks so much. and we just finished our second test show.
Do you know that women with mental and emotional instabilities are the most preyed upon women? they are seen as easy marks.....but when your therapist calls you a pushover....you don't have to stand for it. Next post, i will discuss how to respectfully request another therapist, and also a positive use of "you" statements!
Again, please donate
Below, I meant the video on my HeartSoul Ekonomia Page!!!! Sorry for the typos! We don't get to edit these posts!
Come back soon to see my video!!!!!
Wow! We had 20 visitors yesterday!!!! Getting lots of visitors! And that is great! I'm hoping you if you have questions you will go ahead and ask....I'll be very glad to answer your questions. Because I have such an encompassing dream and scope of what I want to do, and how. I think it is important that people are able to get an un-adulterated understanding of culture, and I love baking bread, and also...I feel that for people who are high functioning with mental and emotional disabilities, they need assistance in learning ow to function in healthier ways. xenOikos Bread Company will help in all those ways.....
I do all the bread by hand, grinding my seasonings and mixing by hand...I have recently starting weighing out my flour measurements. I use all natural ingredients, and I've been getting rave reviews.
I do myself, suffer from anxiety, and depression and I struggle with this everyday, but inspite of that, I manage to move forward with the many parts of my vision: Yet seeing thisvision through has also it joys, the hard mental and physical work is worth it....it helps me wake up in the morning, to fight the demons, and, with God's grtace, win some battles!!!!!
Thanks for taking a peep, and please donate and share!
my olde fashion grinder
10% over the next few days would be wonderful! Just 8 of you could donate 10.00 and help us reach that goal!!!!!
I was chopping my almonds with a knife, a sifter, and a bowl before I was able to for about 2 or 3 dollars get an old fashion grinder! It took me 4 hours to chop 1 cups worth of almonds. And I still believe that i did a finer job with the knife; but the grinder is quicker!
When I chose to go pitch for the library it was basically about logistics. I could walk to the Utica Public Library and to the Utica Coffee Roasting Company, but lugging around a market umbrella, and table, and the bake goods would require different transportation--cabby, and at the time i did not have the insurance or the fees to move into that venue...so I thought that i would start out at the library...and then move into the various community venues.....
So if you are wondering why Im making this pledge; that is why! I want folks to come on down and check out the cafe at the Library!!!! It's got a wonderful mural, painted by Robin Cecilia, a local, and it is a very calm and inviting place that occasionally heats up with very interesting conversations!
And go check out the Tarts at Utica Coffee Roasting Company!!!! They have awesome coffee, locally blended.
Feel free to contact me and ask me any questions!!!!
Walkin' catatonic today.....actually forgot to buy almonds and cinnamon, yesterday, and had to run out and get them....
I suffer from a type of panic attack that makes you shut down, and not quite function: its the same feeling I used to get when my foster mom was about to beat me. There i said it....
It manifest also by me talking alot too, and by feelings of paralyses accompanied by rapid beating heart.
Not too long ago, this summer and this fall, I sincerely
thought I was having a heart attack!
Bu I love being a baker, and doing all the other stuff!!! Really. Love. . And if I had a very different growing up experience, i wouldn't be here right now asking you guys to support this move toward and giving back!
So please share...Please Donate. You got a question you want answered, please ask.
I was really surprised that the xenOikos Bread Company took off as well as it did. It is an amazing journey... But it needs to grow.
At Market Saturday, and at the GArden on Sunday. Pleasant day both, even in the rain on Saturday.
The market is a place to meet wonderful people, vendors and patrons alike. It's great talking to the regulars. I know you are all busy with your own concerns, but take ao few minutes and donate anywhere between 5 and 10 dollars, Every little bit helps! Yesterday we had eight visitors to the page. Here are the picts, i promised. finally found the cord to my camera! :) Pictures of me trying to clown around...didn't come out well! Anyway! Donate and Share! We are really coming down to the wire and need you to donate today!!!!! We need to raise at least 500 dollars by Monday 12pm!!!!! Sorry to make it that so loud. Please forgive....the whole campaign is a bit of an embarrassment, nonetheless! But I have exhausted all other avenues, and this is the only way i can raise funds for this livilihood im trying to carve out People say they are tired of people being on the dole, however, I'm trying desperately to get off of it, and to stand.
pleasant day at market
1 of 4 garden plots. here: library plot
fresh bread: Rosemary garlic; honeywheat
Made it to the market and it was a great day. We have wonderful people here in Utica,NY...just have to dig deep under its reputation!!!! Did take picts at the market, and will upload, tomorrow. So exhausted when I come back from doing a market presentations. The market is a great place to get, help local business like the lady who make s the best pizza this side of Eugene, The Gypsy Gourmet, and the lady who makes the very healthy Dog Treats....such unique and thoughtful products. And the people are very nice!!!!! Hope to see you down there next week!!!!
That was in order to bake 4 - 1.75 lb breads. And they came out pretty good. Will show you later...yes i'm a bit late....calling the cab, now!
So in order to bake 1.75 lb breads at a time, in my tiny oven, you have to set the timer to ten minute intervals and switch from lower to upper. and turn them. and pray. Everything the hard way, I'm learning it and applying it....but i would love to go to culinary and baking school. No im not an expert, I'm so pleased everything comes out so well! Slava Bogu...and i want to learn, and so, just 12 of you. This weekend. Make it Happen:::)))
Market Day! GoFundMe website says go post. So I am. feeling safe and secure...and happy. It's a great mark to have made it to a year....despite all the hardships, turnovers and misshaps. I don't know what else to say...but it would be great if we could make 10% this weekend! 12 of you donating 10 dollars can make it happen. Peace Be to You!!!!
Also a public shout out to the anonymous person who donated the 100.00. We are so excited to be listed in the gofundme directory!!!!! Thanks so much!!!! Also on our radio show we have a confirmed local guest! so stay tuned to find out who our first guest will be!!! :)
Congrats on 5.6% raised toward 2500.00 goal!.
Monday we are launching a lemonade and cookie special at the library! So if you are local to Utica, stop by 9-3 M thru F at the Utica Public Library. And Monday we are going to make a strawberry tart for the Utica Coffee Roasting Company. And I got some gooseberries from Valentina, (who last gave me some red currants from her garden and which I sold out very quickly at the Market in my bakewell tarts). So its gooseberries and blueberry tarts at the market, along with cinnamon rolls and brownies, macademian cookies, and honey wheat and rosemary garlic bread.
I'm hoping we can raise 10% by the end of the weekend! Also on Monday I will have a pict of me at the market selling the wares! So remember to share this weekend and to donate as well!!!!! :) The goal this weekend is to get to 10%. If we received 10.00 from each donor this weekend that would be only about 12 donors! Just twelve of you donating 10.00! Thanks so much!!!!!
Somebody Out there is praying for me. Something very momentous just happened! Today! I'll let you know the results on Saturday! 2300/5 is about 450 folks! Look, we are all struggling to survive, if you can't give, please share. Thanks so much!!!!!!!!
My lifelong dream was never to be a burden but to be a help. When I was much younger, I'd lay awake at night designing the ideal orphanage. I always knew that I would be in some type of social work capacity. I always wanted to be a help.
Definitely, I have been humbled, but I'm stronger because I'd learnt inalienable truths about the world, which I shall never abandon...mainly because of the fire I walked through to access those truths, and though I've have a bad start, doesnt mean i have to have a bad end. I feel so empowered by this dream to create this bread company, the xenOikos Bread Company as a social business, to help me create the HeartSoul Ekonomia Institute, so that I can live in harmony with the truths I've discovered about the world and about God, and God in my life.
No matter what happens, I have chosen to live. and not only will i live, I will also thrive. Thanks. So we need just 12 people to donate 5.00! I know you can find a place in your heart and do this. God Bless You!
Thanks alena, I still have that 20.00 you gave me. I've kept it because I wanted it to go for exactly what you donated it for?
Just need 80.00 more dollars before I can get to gofundme's search engines 80/5 is just 16.00 folks. You are helping to fund a ten year old dream. Thanks!
Only 99.92% to go guys. Thanks so much for stopping by!
Market Day Today. Peaches and Blueberry Bakewell Tarts!
xenOikos Bread Company is a Social Enterprise, created to fund a dream of 10 years that seeks to combine cultural research and family advocacy from a women-centric perspective.
The funds will help us to buy a baker's rack, bread proofing baskets, packaging for our baked goods, restock supplies and to purchase other kitchen and baking implements, and a very small vacuum cleaner. Most importantly. it will help us renew our insurance policy and pay market fees. A very
small portion will be used to attend the St. Moses the Black Conference in Detroit, Michigan.xenOikos Bread Company
the Social Enterprise
One Year In Business
Why Pursue xenOIkos Bread CompanyxenOikos Bread Company
Let me tell you about a dream I've had most of my life and which began to be felt in my heart about 20 years ago, and which began to take on its current shape 10 years ago. the Social Enterprise
The xenOikosBread Company is a social enterprise that came into existence to fund the HeartSoul Ekonomia Institute (HSEKI), and its programs, one of which is the BlogTalkRadio show WimminFolk: Sacred and Vernacular
which is currently in test mode. It's first show will be on the 13th of August, a Tuesday, at 12:30pm. It cost us nothing to do or maintain the show at this time.
The HeartSoul Ekonomia Institute also will be exhibiting either September 2014 or January 2014 depending on whichever venue we decide upon, an art show entitled Irredenta:The Politics of the Unredeemed. The Dream
These programs are all part of the advocacy and education role that the HeastSoul Ekonomia Institute wants to provide for women, especially women who have been traumatized and as a result suffer from emotional or mental instability. Another program, our core program is the Prodigal Daughter Course
, which aims to teach women household management skills from a holistic perspective. Getting funding for this idea was tough, the economy is tight, and the mood is competitive. When we didn't procure funding in 2012, I had to look deep inside myself and see how i could with my own hands bring the idea to light, into being.I decided to make bread.One Year in Business
Although the xenOikos Bread Company has only been in business since the 5th of June 2012, we are fortunate to have as B2B clients the Utica Public Library's Chapter One Café (UPLCOC) and the Utica Coffee Roasting Company. We supply the first with desserts such as mini bakewell tarts, danishes, hazelnut cookies and brownies, all handmade, using natural ingredients, and made from scratch; and the second we supply with bakewell tarts. We also currently offer Rosemary Garlic Bread and HoneyWheat. Pictured above is our Cinnamon Bread. BTW, Dellicious! And yes, xenOikos Bread Compan has made it over the first year hump. VESID
Currently, i am an active client of Vocational Rehab here in Utica. To them I have submitted my ticket to work. At that agency the projected outcome is to further establish the xenOikos Bread Company as a self-employment entity. In about a year from now,i will be eligible for a grant from them to get a new oven, to take classes, to make the xenOikos Bread Company not just at break even, but profitable.Why Pursue xenOikos Bread Company?
I decided to pursue the xenOikos Bread Company as a funding vehicle, because I do not want to compromise the vision and mission of HSEKI.Initially, HSEKI will be dependent on the sweat of my brow as I make bread. the tears in my heart will be of gratitude. You may know what I mean, and you may know how it feels to have such a strong vision. It owns you and to compromise it is to compromise your very soul. So if I have to build a bakery to see the dream come true, Im willling to do it. And so far, I have been successful. Why Im Eligible for Vesid, and Why the Dream Is So Important To Me
I am ellgible for Vesid-Access VR because I receive Social Security Disability Benefits. When I was younger I watched my mom be abused and mistreated by people in her life, and I and my siblings had been abused in the various foster homes and institutions we grew up in. As a result of intensive abuse,being raped, ganged rape, and having one of my foster moms repeatedly try to kill me, I also suffer from mental and emotional instability, yet at 51 years of age, I feel I have come a long way in my ability to live a functional and meaningful life. I do have a great support group, and i am in therapy. And my Church, which sees its mission as therapeutic, has been a priceless healing path for me.Walking Through Fire
Yet, despite people calling me grandiose, I have found people who saw the vision, and saw that i could, because
of my past and my struggles, make the dream a reality to benefit other women who have been through the same thing, who have walked through the same fire. And The Great News is that xenOikos Bread Company has been a successful supplier to both above-mentioned establishments for the entire year it has been in business. I worked this business for a whole year despite the hardship, the delays, the misfortunes, and the grief of my mother passing away, and the constant fear which manifest itself as debilitating panic attacks. Still I dream. Still i dreamed. The dream is becoming a reality.After The Campaign:
The funds will help us to buy a baker's rack, bread proofing baskets, packaging and other kitchen and baking implements, and a very small vacuum cleaner. Most importantly. it will help us renew our insurance policy and pay market fees
. Also my co-host and I of WimminFolk:Sacred and Vernacular will attend a conference of the St. Moses the Black Conference. Back On Our Feet
Short Term Goal is to Successfully Expand into the Farmers Markets, particularly the Oneida County Public Farmers Market, the Utica City Market and this summer the Monday Nights at Hanna Parks at City Hall. It takes money, to be a vendor at these markets, and i'm still taking cabs to get there and back. Yes a long term goal is to get a car, and Vesid will help with that.
The Main Long Term Goal is to establish a permanent bakery in this town, which used to have quite a few independent bakeries in its hey-day; the difference is that xenOikos Bread Company is established as a social enterprise with the goal of supporting and funding the HeartSoul Ekonomia Institute and its programs which aim is to serve the community of Utica. With your help, this will not be derailed.What Caused the Present Situation:
Now, the challenge is that we were somewhat forced to go into the Farmers Market earlier than we intended and less funded than we initially hoped on:
And although we have been successful, I did mention my biological mother and her passing. One cause for cash-flow issues is that this year, my mom, Mrs. Barbara Ann Williams King died of colon cancer. So I was back and forth to North Carolina. My mom also suffered from schizophrenia. Her schizophrenia was mostly interior, yet her life was chaotic. Present at her death, I was grateful to witness her peaceful and serene passing...tears were coming from her eyes, and she had most beatific smile on her face and in her eyes.
Nonetheless, I must admit that she is a guiding inspiration to creating the HeartSoul Ekonomia Institute which seeks to be a resource for women who have suffered trauma that has resulted in emotional or mental instability.
The second issue plaguing us is that advertising funding was not available for the UPL café due to that institution losing a large chunk of its funding. Also, I who recently had been homeless, did not have funding to put toward advertising, and Iwas too afraid to branch farther without upgrading my equipment, and saving the necessary funds to expand into other areas. The need for a commercial grade stove is great. On the other hand, The Volunteers and Staff at the UPL Café are the cream of the crop, and they have been consistent, pleasant, supportive, and dare I say, long suffering, while being fun to work with. Because of them we are steadily increasing the UPL's café customer base, and the regulars are becoming friends. You should hear some of the conversations that go on in there! Today a little girl came in because she wanted a tart for her birthday! Although I'm Getting a Good Reviews and Repeat Customers,
all I have been doing, is breaking even. I use one quarter of my SSD benefits to fund my business, and because of other certain limiting factors- no car, need a new stove, (im using a mini small- space 20" wide gas range oven now to bake my bread)- I'm unable to grow.And the process with Vesid-Access VR takes time, includes assessments, and meetings, and other consultations. That's the reality.
So you may be asking yourself: how do I deliver my wares? I walk. Every morning, rain, shine, snow, or blizzard or summer squall, I have been delivering by foot my wares to the Utica Public Library. Also I walk down to the Utica Coffee Roasting Company once a week, on Mondays. There is
an apartment building i would like to advertise in, two, which are in walking distance...but I need a baker's rack, and to increase storage ability before I can really do that well, and to the highest standards of health code. I mean my stove is tiny, because my apartment is tiny! And believe me, having a tiny apartment creates its own issues, which one must be vigilent about. :)People Like the Danishes, Breads, Tarts...
When I make it to the farmers market, i have brisk sales of my treats. The pleasure is tripled, because as I'm making each sweet bread or savory bread, I am thinking about the women and eventually, the men HSEKI will be able to help. The research we will be able to do in order to help them. I'm excited about that, and this drives me. I have a unique vision, and i want to see it become a reality...it's simple, really!Single Woman With A Disabilty, a Hidden One at That
It's so hard being a single woman with a disability...society does look down on you, and actually writes you off. Im very glad for the people who rose above the idea that i would be a worthless individual and instead who wanted to support me in this dream. Nothing is easy but i have learned that Community is the key to success. Given a Fish, or Learning To Fish
Still It is very difficult for women such as myself to reach out, and allow herself to be in community. But can that community reach out in return in a way that helps a person to thrive, rather than in a way that keeps her soul and her spirit crushed?
Im speaking about the principle of allowing the person the means to fish, rather than always giving that person a fish. The people I am appealing to are of the type to whom it brings joy to them to see others succeed, and do well in life. they are encouraged by this expression of the human spirit, this image of Christ, which exist in all souls. The Solution
Any entrepreneur knows that to expand into any market requires capital, and xenOikos Bread Company requires capital to expand and address some business needs that require addressing before the end of the month of August 2013
. At this 11th hour, I am appealing for assistance to regain a sustainable operation so that I can give back and pay back the generous efforts of members and businesses of this community, such as my Church St. John Kronstadt, and also members and staff at the Library and the community of Utica. The funds will help us to buy a baker's rack, bread proofing baskets and other kitchen and baking implements and a very small vacuum cleaner and it will also allow us to renew our insurance policy and help my cohost and i to attend a religious networking conference: the St. Moses the Black Conference in Detroit Michigan.
So If you could help me raise these funds it would be greatly appreciated!!! More than you could ever know! <3
sincerely, xenia-xenOikos Bread Company
-HeartSoul Ekonomia Institute
-WimminFolk:Sacred and Vernacular