Infertility Heartbreak

Hi! I am making this to hopefully help in the hardship of infertility cost on myself and my husband. We have been ttc (trying to conceive) our first child for over a year and have been very unsuccessful. We have been struggling with the fact that we have been unable to hold a child of our own. I just want to be able to look down in my arms and see me and my husband’s features all rolled into a precious bundle of joy but fear it may never happen for us. I started to see a RE (Reproductive Endocrinologist) and was diagnosed with PCOS Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome which has made it almost impossible for me to conceive and was told that I will need medical treatment to have my own child.  

       A little more about us and our ttc journey. I never thought wanted to rush to have children but I have always wanted them, I figured with time it will happen! I have so many nieces and nephews I was happy with them all and I am very active in their care. I have created a very strong bond with them but I have always felt that I would love to have that bond with my own child some day and I couldn’t wait to have it. After hard and long months of trying we finally sought medical care. That’s when they told me about the PCOS. I was devastated but hopeful that something would work for us.  

I have undergone tons of treatments costing me thousands of dollars with no success. I’ve used many different medications Metformin, Letrozole, and Clomid to name a few. I have also had tons of ultrasounds, examinations and blood draws. It has been a devastating and painful journey with one disappointment after another. But now I have found a medication called Gonal-f and I responed to it but it's costly.

The medication is not cheap without insurance the price for me to $222 for 900 iu but this is only 4 days of medication.  I have exhausted my finances. Also my insurance does NOT cover ANY of this treatment this is all paid out of pocket because our insurance just does not offer fertility coverage sadly like many other women ttc the financial burden is the hardest and alot of their insurance policies do not cover these treatments either.

It really devastates me that the only true thing holding me back is just not haveing enough finances to cover it all. We have sacrificed all we have to get where we are today. My husband and me have done so much to bring in more money but we are running out of options. My husband and I have been very dedicated employees at our places of employment for over 10 years we are very proud of our careers and have really found what we want to do! Unfortunately it just isn’t covering it all. We have turned to some family and they have helped where they could but they struggle with life’s everyday financial burdens and we understand that they have done what they are able to do.

I did get pregnant on my 12th Cycle on Aug 5th I got a Big Fat Positive test but sadly had a miscarrage at 5 weeks I was devistaed that I had made it I got pregant then to only tear my heart in two and lose my little one. I am staying strong and managed to pay off our last cycle but now we are having to repeat the whole process over since it did work we will need to try it all over again. I am staying strong and know with prayer and pushing forward this will happen!!

I never in a million years thought this would be my story I always say that I was made to be a mother it has always been my life time dream to give birth and to care for a little one of my own. I truly hope and pray that one day this will come true for me and for all women and couples who suffer this pain called infertility. My thoughts and prayers are with them all.
Thank you for your time to read my story and thank you kindly and gratuitously for your donations of any kind!