A few days ago I revieved a letter from my mother. It was an entry in her diary after we reunited and I broke down in tears. The moment I am able to hug and feel my mom's embrace for the first time I just am looking forward to this moment so much. Now tonight I received the love from my brother with his sweet letter and picture to me that says, "Marissa I love you." I am so excited to hug my brothers and sister so tight for the first time also. I can on my afford to take one of my children at a time so right now Hallie will be coming with me to Colombia in December. I am still trying to raise money to offset the financial weight of a trip like this. Thank you to those who've already donated and for all the prayers and support. Please click on the link and make a donation. God bless.
These kind of messages continue to lift my spirits from my birth family. The feeling of finally belonging! I fall more and more in love with my family every single day. It's been four months and time continues to fly by. Soon I will be in the arms of my Birth mom. Thank you to my brother Juan Pablo for this message today!
"Te estuvimos pensado muchimo hoy ey y si que te quiere la familia te amamos y ya que somos una familia tan unida hoy querernos espresar que pese al paso de los días no pasa ni uno en el que no hayamo
Every moment I get to talk to my sister's and brothers is a blessing. I love every minute of it. Today we laugh we laughed alot. My brother is learning English and it's so beautiful to watch him talk. My brother also showed me the hospital where I was born. That was so nice to see as he was walking down the street. It's simple things of my history that I never knew about me that mean so much to me now. My brother is also in the process of applying for his Visa but it's very complicated there. Praying he will get approved. Please keep us all in your prayers for us to be together.
Cada momento tengo la oportunidad de hablar con los hermanos de mi hermana y es una bendición. Me encanta cada minuto de ella. Hoy nos reímos nos reímos mucho. Mi hermano está aprendiendo Inglés y es muy bonito de ver hablar. Mi hermano también me mostró el hospital donde nací. Eso fue muy agradable ver que se paseaba por la calle. Son cosas simples de la historia de mi que no sabía acerca de mí que significa mucho para mí ahora. Mi hermano también está en el proceso de solicitud de su visa, pero es muy complicado allí. Orar que será aprobado. Por favor, todos nosotros en sus oraciones para que estemos juntos.
Dios los bendiga
Laughter is the Best Medicine
Thank you to all who've been a part of this journey with your thoughts prayers donations. This has been such a beautiful experience and the excitement continues to grow. Please consider making a contribution. This will help offset the financial weight for me to get to Colombia so I can meet my mom. Thank you Thank you Thank you!!!
Three months ago today my Birth mom was found and my very big family have welcomed Brian, my Fab Five, & I with SO much love. This has been the most amazing God send and blessing. I went my whole life desperately needing to know the woman who gave me life and now I know. Immediately a love SO profound and immeasurable poured into my soul the moment I got to see her through Skype. The tears of happiness continue to fall every time I can talk to her and see her face. I've been able to communicate with all my brothers and sisters weekly through FB and just fall more and more in love with my family every day. The moment I get to meet them in person will be so epic and I can't wait! Still 3 months later it seems so surreal but one of the best gifts from God has been my whole family. I'm so thankful! Glory to God!❤
Third Severe Head Injury: Remembering through this amazing journey God is in control. As many know I had a softball injury scary That left me with a severe concussion / head trauma, & left side of my body with delay & weakness last week, spending some time in ICU, Trauma Unit & Rehabilitation Unit Being stuck here in the hospital has had some challenges but Also Given me time to appreciate everything & everyone in my life. Each day I look back at my journey and I am truly blessed!
Unfortunately due to the head injury (this is now my third severe head injury) I have to postpone my trip to Colombia to see my Birth Mother and family. It's been an emotional struggle accepting today I'm unable to travel This Day but my faith is in God and His plans are much bigger than my own. Recovery will be a long road but I've shown before the Doctors That I can do this! This Also Gives me more time to continue fundraising to offset the expenses for my children and my love to come with me to Colombia. Thank you for your Support during this recovery! I love my Colombian family!
Day of injury
My Biggest Fan Visits in Rehab
Each day that goes by is one day closer to feeling my mamas embrace. I think about her constantly, last week she read to me. It was a beautiful letter she wrote and had me in tears. A mother reading to her child is just as powerful as an adult as it is if I were still a child. Watching her face, seeing her eyes, her smile, it was a moment I will never forget. The simplest things like reading to me brings me so much joy just to have my mama read to me. Love my mama!❤
Cada día que pasa es un día más cerca de sentir mis mamas abrazan. Pienso en ella constantemente, la semana pasada que ella me leía. Era una hermosa carta que ella escribió y me hizo llorar. Una lectura de la madre a su hijo es tan potente como un adulto ya que es si yo fuera todavía un niño. Observando su rostro, al ver sus ojos, su sonrisa, fue un momento que nunca olvidaré. Las cosas más simples como leer a mí me trae tanta alegría sólo para tener a mi mamá me leía. El amor de mi mamá!❤
God Bless my Amazing Cousin Donna Jo! This means so much to me! Thank you with all my heart for your sweet generous heart! I love you! I can't wait to tell you all about my trip when I get back. My family LOVES to see the pictures you sent last year of Sonny B and Nanny Rose as well as you, Gus, & Bubba! Wish I could just hug you right now Cuz! ❤
Family Im coming home soon to Colombia!
I thank God for New Beginnings and fresh starts. TODAY marks exactly one month since I've found my Birth Mother. The desires grow so much stronger to be in her arms. Every day that goes by is one more day closer to this really happening! Thank you to one of the BIGGEST blessings since we moved to FL is my Forest Lake Family Becky, Steve, Bailey & Lola as well as Beckys parents Leslie & Ron. They were with me the night I received confirmation my Birth Mother was found! Thank you to all who have made donations. I still have a ways to go but every little bit counts. God is SO good!
God is simply Amazing! Yesterday marks three weeks since I've found my Mom and the gift of a GINORMOUS Family. Every single day has been SO special. I speak to my sister's and brothers daily and my many nephews, nieces, and cousins. I am still in shock and love everything about my family. I am beyond blessed. This year was by far the BEST MOTHERS DAY ever! My story continues to travel all over the world to continue to give people hope! My visits to my journal have doubled in one week, as I went from 1000 some visits to now 2,060 visits and followers. August can't come soon enough. Thank you all for your thoughts, support, prayers, generous gifts. God Bless!
Dios es simplemente increíble! Ayer se cumplen tres semanas desde que he encontrado mi mamá y el regalo de una familia GINORMOUS. Cada día ha sido tan especial. Hablo de mi hermana y mis hermanos y mis sobrinos a diario muchos, sobrinas y primos. Todavía estoy en estado de shock y me encanta todo lo relacionado con mi familia. Estoy más allá bendecido. Este año fue de lejos el mejor DÍA DE MADRES nunca! Mi historia sigue viajando por todo el mundo para seguir dando esperanza a la gente! Mis visitas a mi diario se han duplicado en una semana, a medida que iba desde 1000 algunas visitas a ahora 2.060 visitas y seguidores. Agosto no puede llegar lo suficientemente pronto. Gracias por sus pensamientos, apoyo, oraciones, generosos regalos a todos. Dios los bendiga!
Video chatting has been the most amazing ever with my family and messenging back and forth throughout the day. I watch the videos daily and wish so much I could be in Colombia sooner than August. I love and miss my family so much. We laugh together and smile more than ever. My family are such a blessing and I'm so thankful for the amazing time we share together. God is so good!
Chat de vídeo ha sido el más increíble de mi vida con mi familia y messenging un lado a otro durante todo el día. Miro los vídeos cada día y deseo tantas cosas que podría estar en Colombia antes de lo de agosto. Me amo y extraño mucho a mi familia. Nos reímos juntos y sonreír más que nunca. Mi familia es una gran bendición y estoy muy agradecido por el tiempo increíble que compartimos juntos. Dios es tan bueno!
Thank you Thank you Thank you for all the love and support since the amazing news of finding my family. I went from 400ish people following to 1446 people following my GoFundMe journal. WOW! So many beautiful moments. Our bonds have become unbreakable! Each one of my GINORMOUS Family has a special place in my heart. Yesterday I was sent a video of some family introducing themselves and sharing special greetings to me. I cried happy tears and watched this too many times to count. I LOVED seeing my grandmother so happy! Today my mama shared her testimony at their church and was videod also. I can't wait to see this special moment. God truly works miracles. I've spent hours and hours on video calls with my family. It takes us a long time to end a call. I'm so in love! Thank you for helping to make my dream a reality! God bless you all!
Thank you God for giving me the blessings of family. I want to spend every second of every day online right now. Even though the distance between us is great our hearts and souls are together. The relationships I've developed with my family was an immediate connection and we are so close without even trying. I am beyond thrilled to see my mama and see how much she loves me and my family. Her courage to stay strong all these years has given me inspiration. Each one of my brothers and I have connected in a way I can't even describe. To see them smile and laugh soothe my soul and it makes me so happy! Each one of my sister's is so beautiful like heaven in my eyes. They each shine so bright and I can't stop thinking about my sister's and I see so much of me in them. I've always felt like I just didn't belong anywhere and now I feel I belong. I've never felt so much love for me in my life. My children are just as in love with their grandma, uncle's, aunts, and cousins. My children now have a big family on my side and getting to know our family has been such a blessing! I'm really wishing Colombia wasn't so far away. I want so badly just to feel them in my arms and see my mama in person. Man do I want my mama right this second. I just need to feel her heart beat, i need to see her smile in person and tell her in person she will never lose me again. I love my mama so much and these last couple of days have been God's grace shining on us all. My story of hope continues to reach other adoptees in a way they've needed, as well as people who just need to see the world really is beautiful and good things do happen. I'm proof. The thoughts, prayers, supports, emails, phone calls, visits...just WOW! I truly am blessed by all my friends who've been my family all these years. Guess what friends, your family just grew too!
Today I get to meet all my uncle's and aunts and my grandmother for the first time. I have many uncles and aunts. Also my mama is sharing our testimony at her Church. I'm so happy for my mama and so proud of her! God is SO good!
Thank you everyone for following along on my journey and riding this with me. I coudnt do this without you all.
My beautiful mama and family.
FINALLY MY BIRTH MOTHER HAS BEEN FOUND! THANK YOU GUSTAVO! IM GONNA SEE MY MAMA! As you know I hired a private investigator and he found my
birth mother tonight after 2 years of my search. I have three brothers and
three sisters. All have children, I have a ton of nieces and nephews too
many to name, my family is HUGE. My brothers names are
Juan Pablo 38
Maria 26 (my Birth Mother named my first sister after me)
Cindy Nataly 25
Judith 30 (my Birth Mother adopted Judith)
My adoption was an illegal adoption as my adoption is a very sad story. My
mother has searched for me for 36 years. She didn't want to give me up for
adoption. My mother was tricked to give me up as she was drugged and told
to sign a blank page and then I was gone. I was sold for money. Her heart
has been broken for years and tomorrow I speak to her for the very first
Im so thankful I was never unwanted and that she's been trying to find me
too. I'm flying to Bogota in August to meet my huge family.
Please pray about making a donation because I need to feel my mother's arms! If I raise enough then I may be leaving sooner than later. Thank you Jesus! Thank you for helping me get through these last few weeks in my search for all the prayers support encouragement. I'm SO HAPPY!
I prayed ALOT this weekend and needed so badly to hear what I hadn't heard in such a long time during the message. About not losing hope, about needing a fresh start, and about the very little time we truly have in this earthly life and what I will do with my time while I'm here. All was eye opener! I lost one of the most precious people in my life and nothing like getting kicked while I was already down but so many signs yesterday telling me not to give up on my search. God was practically yelling at me to get it together and don't take long to grieve because His plans for me are SO huge. My ultimate goals in life was to find my birth mom and be a mommy. Blessed beyond all measures x 5 as a mama, but strength I've been finding in my friends who've supported me ever since I started my search, time to put my game face back on and get excited again about this dream becoming a reality. I spoke to Gustavo over the weekend and getting prepared on my end for THE call. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for lifting me up during all this confusion and come hell or high water IM GONNA FIND MY BIRTH MOM!!!!! Here's a little snippet of our convo again. ðŸ˜Š
Even with my dysfunctional life, donations are still coming in. From the bottom of my heart thank you.❤
HUGE FAVOR to all following my story! Needing my Support Team. Now that each day these next couple weeks is becoming a true Life Changing moment for my children and I, I was asked to start filming my experience and this will be compiled into a beautiful video of my journey not only for myself but also for my Private Investigator to use for film with his work he does. We will be filming at my daughters school tomorrow and with my church family from Lino Lakes campus small group this weekend and anytime I've received more news. I will also be setting up a time for as many people as possible to meet at MOA for a photo of my supporters (details coming soon) We are also compiling individual support videos from those of you not in Mn or in Mn who are not directly accessible for filming. If you'd like to be apart of this film, please email a short one minute or less video to either email@example.com or firstname.lastname@example.org Thank you all for being such a huge part in my life and throughout this journey!
HALLELUJAH!!! EVERYONE I HAVE A BROTHER!!! Around 2:30 pm I found out I HAVE A BROTHER! I'm shaking, I have to goose bumps, my heart is racing 1000 miles a minute...EVERYONE I HAVE A BROTHER!!! It is bitter sweet news as I found out I have a brother through a newspaper article of my birth mothers husbands obituary. Gustavo found this while searching. My birth mothers husband passed away, God Rest His Soul, on February 22nd 1981, so this means my brother was born shortly after I was born, at least within four years of her placing me up for adoption. My brothers name is Arquimedes Torres Bocanegra. I HAVE A BROTHER!!! God is so good! OH MY GOODNESS I cant breath! I HAVE A BROTHER!
AHHHHH Happy Dance! My story continues to make rounds all over Nationally and Internationally! Love seeing the follower number continue to grow. Thank you for walking this path with me and for all who've shared this adventure on your personal FB Pages, Twitter Feeds, LinkedIn Status's...Just awesome! I've had 447 visits and 9.75% to my goal but God is good and I'll get there, I just know it! 58Days! AHHHHHHH!
Before bed I got down on my knees and had to Thank the Lord for the people in my life who've been there for me during all the ups and downs in my life, especially the last couple years! The chosen family I've been blessed with just want to say THANK YOU to my true friends who I call family. I spoke to the Private Investigator last night and right now in Colombia everything is very busy the National Registry System is preparing for the Presidential Election, also many employees are on vacation right now so for him it's become a small bump in the road but he has made contact. One of the biggest life changing experiences is about to unfold. Breath...just breath! Also yesterday another Minnesota Adoptee made a generous $300 anonymous donation. My eyes filled up with tears. Your amazing M?, Cant wait to meet up for dinner so I can squeeze you soon! Dreams are really coming true! Stay tuned....
I always thought of myself as "DIFFERENT". Why? Because I am considered a transracial or transcultural adoptee. Meaning I was placed with adoptive parents of a "Different" race or ethnic group than what I am. When prospective families adopt outside of their own race or culture they have to understand this means the family becomes a "Different" family. To some adoptive families, different means interesting, wonderful, special but to others different is uncomfortable. The UNCOMFORTABLE is where my story sets. As the parent, you have to make that child feel a part of the family especially because of the different race or culture this child is being taken away from. As a Transracial or transcultural adoptee my parents were not one of those intensely invested type of adoptive parents. I was always asked, "What ethnicity are you?" growing up because I obviously didn't fit in with the pale skinned, blond hair or light haired parents and siblings. I wasn't ever really protected from insensitive racially biased remarks from others, it was more ignored. I remember in 5th Grade a classmate made a comment that because I was Colombian, my real parents must be loaded with money and I must be related to Cocaine Drug Lords. Many times I wanted to tell them I was abandoned but I would just walk away instead of standing up for myself. That is how my adoptive parents raised me was to ignore the ignorance. My adoptive parents never celebrated Colombian traditions, Holidays, or made Colombian food. We rarely had conversations about my culture and I was rarely exposed to different experiences about Colombia. I remember attending two Colombian Picnics. I was never around other Colombians. I feel like I needed this so badly to develop a strong cultural identity. I now have the opportunity to do this for myself and for my own children. I'm SUPER ready to dive head first the moment I step foot back to my homeland for the first time since I was an infant. Without you this wouldn't be possible so I thank you for all the generous donations, thoughts, prayers, encouragement from all who are following along with me on my journey. I only have 59 days left until I get to touch the ground I came from and THIS MEANS SO MUCH TO ME! Each day the closer it gets the more exciting this is!
A Family's strength is bonded by LOVE!
I thank the Lord for all I have gotten and for all that has happened. Thank you everyone for donating. I now have $ 480.00 and I couldn't be more thankful. I have about half of my flight paid for now. Without you this wouldn't be possible. God Bless! Thank you everyone. :-)
God revealed Himself to me today during my morning devotion. Reassuring is an understatement! Randomly opened to the book of Esther . Yes I strongly believe God is in control but by putting my journey out there this is where I feel similar to this book. I've had to make difficult decisions in my life by going against my adoptive family with such delicate situations, I've had to face people who tell me, "Don't do it". Although I've been discouraged in the past to look for my birth family, I now can act with confidence yet still needing God's protection. I feel like God is with me every step of the way during this exciting and difficult search but my courage and strength can help other adoptees. When others need my support during their own search, I'm here for them and I'll pray for them just as they've all been for me. I trust in God with the outcome. I know that where I'm at in life God can use me to help other adoptees. I know God wants me to be open, available, and ready to use me to do what others might be too afraid to even consider. I was once too scared to even think about finding my biological mother but I couldn't just let my dreams fade away. Lord use me like you used Esther! Amen
I'm thankful for my amazing Colombian sister Molly, her husband Sebastian, and Baby William for your prayers and your donation tonight. My search all started the day I found you and I will get to celebrate with you very soon. Te quiero Molly y Sebastian! ðŸ’›
"Follow your heart, never surrender your dreams. Always believe in yourself and let God do the rest." ~ Abhishek Tiwari
I woke up to another fabulous donation this morning! God is SO good! Every moment it gets closer I grow more and more anxious! Another question I was asked was, am I going to be ready for the big culture shock being in Colombia away from the only culture I know? For me, I feel like deep down I never lost the Colombian culture in me. When I was very little my adoptive parents said if I ever heard someone speak Spanish immediately my head would turn to find where it's coming from. When I'm in a highly populated Hispanic neighborhood for work, I feel a sense of belonging. When I leave for Colombia will I ever have that complete sense of home in Minnesota again? Because of my desperate need to find my roots I already feel like Colombia is my REAL home. (even though I've not been to my homeland since my birth) Its SO hard to explain but I feel that sense of knowing I belong in one place above all others without a doubt is Colombia and I CAN'T WAIT to go "home". Thank you so much for all who have made donations! They keep coming in one by one and it will help tremendously! 330 visits following along on my journey and complete strangers are starting to pass along my story. It's been so great that Ive had the opportunity to share my story to people from all over the world! Only 68 days left!!!! AHHHH! ✈
Small part of my first conversation with my Private Investigator, DREAMS CAN COME TRUE!
IF YOU HAVE A DREAM, PROTECT IT WITH ALL YOUR HEART! My itch to find my Birth Mother started when I was in Elementary school. I always kept my thoughts silent and bottled up . I never felt comfortable talking to my adoptive family about my adoption because I was always told, "Don't look for your birth mother, it's not good." Those words from my adoptive family were branded in my thoughts so I felt discouraged by them, until I left home at an early age and the relationship between my adoptive family and I grew more and more distant, the more my curiosity grew for locating my birth mother. That itch grew very strong now that I have my own children. They need my birth family as much as I do. Two years ago once I settled from a big move, it was time. I tried doing my own search and found nothing, and now 1yr 4mo ago it only took s few hours after connecting with my private investigator to get information back about my birth mother. This picture is another little snippet of our first conversation. After being discouraged and family against me finding my Birth Mother I have to tell you, if you have a goal in life no matter what it is DONT let others discourage you from achieving your goal. If you have a dream you have to protect it with all your heart. If you have a dream, Don't let anything stand in your way. If you have people telling you, you can't or you shouldn't just smile at them and say, "WATCH ME!" My mind was set along time ago to find my birth mother and by simply removing the negative in my life and replacing them with positivity and my faith in God, it's really happening !!! Don't ever let go of your dreams! Dreams can come true.
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Today there was a little hiccup but tomorrow at 9:00am is another scheduled meeting with this contact. I'm ready for more info about my Birth Mother. The support has been overwhelming and I can't thank you enough for following along, thoughts, prayers, well wishes, and contributions. As of tonight, I've had 211 people following and I'm SO thankful I you all because I couldn't do this alone. I keep looking at my picture of Colombia on my living room wall, it was a suprise gift from two of my dearest friends Maribel and Mike, also Colombian adoptees. I can't believe I will be seeing this print in person soon. I'm going to be traveling with other incredible friends of mine also Colombian adoptees. Please pray for all of us who are making this trip to our homeland for the first time together. Stay tuned in for more updates tomorrow. This is such a nail biter of a journey and just have to remember God's in charge.
I spoke to my Investigator this morning and sent a payment to him. Without you and your generosity this would not be possible, I wish I could hug those who have donated and is helping me to make my dream a reality. Everything is set to go for his meeting today with the gentleman from Colombia's National Registry System, within the next week Gustavo will have contact with my Birth Mother. (Crossing fingers) People ask me if I know "Why" I was placed up for adoption. My answer is this...To me , this is not important and I really don't care WHY I was brought to Los Pisingos. What IS most important to me, is how much she loved me to make such a selfless decision and probably one of the most difficult decisions in her life. The past doesn't matter to me, what matters to me is I've been waiting my whole entire life to fill a void that has been empty for so long. God has blessed my children and myself SO much in our lives and I thank God every day for showing me how much He loves me. Please continue your thoughts and prayers for a successful outcome of today's meeting. Ants in my pants ANTS IN MY PANTS! This is all SO EXCITING I can hardly contain myself!
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Tomorrow is going to be another BIG day for me because tomorrow my investigator is meeting with a contact from the National Registry System in Bogota and he will be contacting my birth mom soon. I will get a picture of her. I WILL GET TO SEE WHAT SHE LOOKS LIKE FOR THE FIRST TIME. I've always wondered if I look like her, what our similar features are. I can't wait! I've had a total of 120 visitors read about my journey in 2 days. Thanks for following along. Can't wait to show you all what my birth mother looks like!!!
Thank you to those generous hearts, total raised so far is $185 . What a great start! I'm SO blessed to have the outpour of support, with all the encouragement, thoughts, prayers, people who've shared my journey, or have been following while I'm in the process of filling this missing piece to my heart. Only about 10 weeks left before I meet my birth mother for the first time which means only 10 weeks left to donate. Thanks again & God Bless!
I'm so very close to making the one main dream Ive had my whole life come true, finding my biological mother and family & meeting them all for the first time. This is the one thing that will fill the absence in my heart and being able to embrace the woman who gave me life would be a dream come true. Im so so so close to making this dream a reality. This will be my very first time returning to my home country where I was born . I left Bogota as a six week old infant and returning as a 36 year old adult is a trip I've needed for far too long. The search for my biological mother has been costly as Ive hired an INCREDIBLE private investigator (he's been an absolute blessing to my whole family) , the costs to apply for passport, the costs to retrieve my legal documents from my adoption, the travel that includes airfare, hotel, interpreter while i'm in colombia, taxi costs, and all the other costs for this international travel to finally meet my birth mom. Many of you all know I started this search two years ago and it's actually happening! Im not one to ever ask anyone for anything but it's time to ask for your help. The only family I have right now is just my five children and myself and my fiancee Brian (as hard as it was to let go of my adoptive parents it was harder to keep them in my life), but I know I will have my biological family soon. If you can please please help reduce the financial obligations I need in order to make this happen, Id be forever grateful and will pay it forward to others who are searching. Any amount will be helpful to reach my goal but i only have until june 12th to raise as much money as i can to have an opportunity for myself (and my children next year) to ebrace the woman who gave me life. By God's grace and mercy He's already shown me I know I can do this with your help. Matthew 19:26, With God all things are possible. Thank you & God BlessMarisa Bocanegra