I want to thank each and every Angel out there... I am sharing a note that I sent to a few people recently who have sent me beautiful notes and do understand that I will continue to do good things in Lulu's honor....my sentiments are below:
"I am completely beyond saddened by all of this... But I will only look for the goodness that she brought to me, my family, and hopefully to everyone who has come to love her like yourself. The past several months have changed my life going forward... forever ...and I have a purpose to help others like Lulu to also give them another chance. Lulu had a very special higher purpose which I believe was to enlighten all of us to the plight that animals that are abused and neglected endure, often silently. I have tried, all along the way, to continuously communicate to everyone her story and updates. When I started this it was because I looked into her eyes and saw that she just desperately wanted love and a good loving home. She came into my life on the one year anniversary of my Dad's passing, my Dad gave me my love and passion for animals.... I have lived in this small town my whole life and people here know my efforts firsthand to help her have hope for a chance at a new life !
My one true desire and goal was to give her a chance at a second life, and for the 3 months she was with me it was a true labor of love that gave her peace and pleasure...and I saw a dog that was truly happy...that wagged her tail for the first time in a very long time.... I have never had a dog bond with me so quickly and so deeply...and I have had at least 2 dogs in my home (all rescues) my entire life and I am 55 yeasrs old. We administered her medications round the clock and fed her religiously on time 3 times a day, with prescription food, finely scrambled hamburg and organic chicken broth - She loved it !!! She learned to play with toys, something she never had before !!! She went for rides in the car and to the beach for a walk, something she never had done before as she was chained outside her whole life beforehand I have since learned. She had a soft orthopedic bed that she curled up on every night and it helped her sleep well despite her being so thin..She learned to play with other dogs, instead of being fearful of them, my dog Shiloh and my daughter's dog Bear, slept with her all curled up together.
So many worse things could have happened to her in her last few months...she could have been let loose on the streets rather than being abandoned at the daycare... she could have been put down immediately and never known the simple pleasures that we were able to share with her. I wanted to give her years of love, attention, and play...we all gave her a second chance... but that was in God's hands..
Please let Lulu's spirit move you to stay true to who you are, a kind soul, who made wonderful gesture that made a huge difference. There are so many souls out there like Lulu that I see on the news who didn't have any chance at all because they didn't find people like you and me before they passed...
I got a wonderful email yesterday on Easter morning from a couple who had made a donation...they expressed their condolences and said that following Lulu's journey had shown them that they need to try to do something more.... they were going to look at all of their local shelters and adopt another dog, perhaps a senior dog that often gets overlooked as eveyone wants puppies.
I got an email from on Kelli Stack, a young woman who was a Silver Medalist Winner on the US Women's Olympic Hockey Team in Sochi this year... she just brought a dog home from Sochi that was simply to be shot because the dogs there run wild and Sochi felt they were a nuisance.. Lulu also touched her heart, and she feels she wants to also do more.
If you wish to stay in touch as I work over time to continue to honor her memory please look for Lulu Danvers MA on FaceBook.
For anyone out there who wants to understand what parents of 4 legged children go through with Megaesophagus please go to this open support on Facebook... you will quickly see that it is an insidious disease, but with other complications such as physical abuse and other secondary complications that result from ME... its an uphill climb...
I have had many, many dogs in my life, all of them have always been rescues, and the heart wrenching loss that comes when they are called to the Rainbow Bridge always leaves each of us with a sense of loss, grief, and emptiness....and yet Lulu has not been like any other dog I have ever known... She fit in completely, without hesitation, and folded into our hearts and our home in such a deep way, in a very short time period. The words "thank you" do not begin to describe how very deeply I feel .... I have been completely overwhelmed in such a wonderful way by all of the notes, emails, kindness, sharing, and donations from everyone who Lulu has touched with her heart and soul... I was truly the luckiest one to have had the opportunity to care for her... but we all adopted her in our hearts... and the love and connection I am feeling from everyone has been tremendous and healing. I know that Lulu would want me to do for others who, like her, have been left behind...to give them the love that they so deserve, help them heal, be comfortable, and find a warm, safe home. That is my wish, and I know she'll be right there with me in spirit.
Words do not come easy to me, especially right now... I am at a complete loss for words... still very much in shock... but I know that I need to share and hopefully find some reasoning and comfort for Lulu behind today.. Lulu has passed onto the rainbow bridge, and we (myself, my son, my daughter, my fiance, my all of friends and neighbors.... who know that my dogs are a direct reflection of me, and my life is their life.... I am devastated with her passing... The surgery tired to remove a significant blockage but found that her trachea was filled with food from the vomiting...the lungs showed a significant develop of aggressive pneumonia that she would not likely survive...beyond that was her trachea ...that was ulcerated from ongoing previous issues, and the blockage had exasperated the damage to the point of rupture....so if they continued with the necessary suction that to clear the trachea it would have ruptured and if they stopped it would have ruptured upon feeding and she would have drowned in her own feeding and saliva.... She will be cremated and her ashes will be on my fireplace above her favorite spot, where she will always be now indoors, warm and loved... I will finalize things with Angell Memorial and any monies at all will be put towards dogs who, have like Lulu, been left behind... The compassion that every single Angel has shown her and my family here has changed our lives beyond belief, and forever. I will be dedicating my efforts to helping dogs that have been abandoned, to find loving homes, and hopefully to find the love and tail wagging that we shared with her these past several months. If anyone wants to message me.. please do... I am dry for tears right now as I have cried myself out... but know that my Dad has already looked for her at the rainbow bridge...my Dad brought her to me on the one year anniversary of his passing... and I trust him still to care for our family.
Update... Lulu has developed aspiration pneumonia from the violent vomiting, xrays today confirm that and her breathing is now labored so she is on oxygen to give relief.. she must have surgery to try to remove the blockage from the kibble as it is not passing on its own at all. They will try to suction it out and move any left downward to her stomach.. this is her best chance I am told. If all goes well she will be there for a few days to avoid complications. I have to give her this one more chance.. I will be adjusting Lulu's goal to cover what I have been given as the costs for this. Ive not asked directly for alot and have been blessed to have bonded with her and given her love... please if you can donate now I leave the rest in God's hands as she'll be at Angell Memorial through Easter. ..thank you all for your love and support with Lulu... may God grant us this one wish..
I have not slept needless to say, and am still waiting to hear of any changes in her status... they are keeping her to monitor her very closely, and hoping that with fluids via IV that she the blockage loosens and passes on its own, albeit slowly... they are very hesitant to perform another surgery as she is strong of heart and soul but her body is fragile .. I wanted to post a personal video to say "thank you" again for every single ounce of support you all have given Lulu, but every time I tried to record a message I cried too much.. please..just know that Lulu and all of you have changed and enriched my family forever by this experience. I will post again as soon as I have more details...
Couldnt wait. Had to go into Angell Memorial. Xrays show kibble has created a blockage... they admitted her and are keeping her... used last of funds ... please say prayers. . Ill let you know tomorrow what they say.
...I know its one day at a time... butc we've come so far... I want to ask for just hope and prayers. Lulu got into some kibble at daycare... we've been throwing up for about 2 hours.. its a wait and see how the night goes... vet in the am...
This is Lulu, she is truly the sweetest German Shepherd. She was abandoned at Spoiled Rotten Doggie Daycare in Danvers, after being left behind there for over a month. She's had a hard life up to this point, spending most of her time outside, but deserves a second chance at life. Danvers Animal Hospital who has seen her in the past has shared that she has a medical condition (esophageal diverticulitis) which requires immediate corrective surgery to allow her to eat and not regurgitate her food. If she doesn't have the surgery, the condition will most likely escalate into a secondary condition (infection in her lungs from aspirating food when vomiting) that could develop, costing her her life. I am going to have her evaluated at Angel Memorial this week for immediate surgery to correct this problem which may cost between $5000 to $8000. depending on severity. Timing is critical. No donation is too small or will go unnoticed...please help me, help Lulu... the Staff at Spoiled Rotten is committed with me to helping her get healthy and get a second chance at life. We are her guardian angels, as she has not had an advocate until this point... every soul deserves a chance. Thanks for lending whatever support you can.