I haven't updated this post in a few months because I have been too sick and simply exhausted from all of the Chemotherapy. I also hate to ask anybody for help and unfortunately I find the whole process fairly depressing.
Having said that, I desperately need help and any amount you can contribute to my fund will be greatly appreciated.
I have more Chemo today at the Cleveland Clinic, and then at home over the weekend but somehow I'll survive.
My health insurance Drug plan has made it clear that they will not cover many more drugs in 2015 and there are onerous limitations on some that I need to take. There is also the 2015 "death hole" which is going up to $4,700. All of the drugs I need will cost much more in 2015 and I find the whole process simply horrible.
If I hadn't been so sick for the last few months I would have spent time working on our website but when it's difficult to eat and walk, work seems and is impossible.
Anyway, thanks for your help to date. Any amount you can contribute to my fund will be greatly appreciated.
I wrote a message earlier today but for some technical reason it did not reach everybody. I am in dire need of financial help and anything you can contribute however small will help me to continue to fight my Cancer. I will receive more Chemo starting Friday. I also desperately need to buy more medications. I am humbled asking for help but I am too sick and in too much pain to work. The Medicare doughnut "death" hole has made it impossible for me to afford my co-pays. Generic medications that had $60 co -pays with my drug plan are now $264 each for a months supply. Given the dozens of medications I must take each month it makes it impossible for me to purchase what I need and pay my other bills. Anything you can contribute will help me to continue my fight to stay alive. The cost of fighting this disease has completely wiped me out financially and it's terrifying.
I've been a total physical mess from my treatments for Cancer and desperately need financial assistance. Anything you can donate will be greatly appreciated more than you can imagine. I am humbled to ask anybody for help but my situation has become dire and untenable. Being too sick to function and dealing with severe orthopedic pain in addition to the Cancer is a nightmare and without your help I simply cannot survive.
I truly appreciate your generous donations to date. They have allowed me to survive until now. Having said that, even with a couple of recent large donations every penny has already been spent paying bills that accumulated paying for my meds during the Medicare Dougunut "death" Hole gap. This means I still have several thousand dollars to pay off before my insurance kicks in again at it's previous levels. This year the doughnut hole is $4,500 and next year it will be $4,740. It will be phased out by 2020 but that doesn't help me now. I also have bills that desperately need to be paid by August 16th. They amount to about $1,700. I have been so weak and sick that I don't know what to do. Just getting out of bed and walking on most days is a Hurculean task. I try not to be depressed but evey penny that I've ever made and every dollar that has been donated has been used to pay my never ending medical bills. I have more Chemo scheduled for this Friday and I will also need to buy more expensive medications that day as well. I assure you any amount however small you can afford to contribute will help me continue to fight my Cancer. I have not spent a dime on anything else for over four years other than the absolute necessities. This means I haven't bought a shirt, shoes or anything else that isn't essential. Just keeping gas in the car and paying for all of the insurance policies for my car, condo, etc. has been a never ending drain. If I could work I would. I actually dream of the day I will feel well enough to work on our website again. When the car needs new brakes or anything else it's now become a financial crisis. In fact the car does need new brakes and I have no idea how I will pay for them.
Again , Thank you for your help to date but anything you can afford to donate will help me more than you can possibly imagine. I try to keep my mood positive but it does get harder as I've gotten sicker from the effects of the Chemo. The good news is the treatments have kept the cancer in Check and therefore I am still alive and able to write and ask for your help. It humbles me to be in such a dire financial position. I also assure you without your help I wouldn't still be alive.
I am in desperate need of financial help. I just finished my latest Chemo infusion today. Unfortunately I cannot pay my bills including my mortgage this month because of the extra cost of my meds due to the punitive Medicare Doughnut hole. I have no idea what to do until I can work on our website again. Anything however small anybody can spare will allow me to buy food and hopefully pay several important bills.
I hate asking for help but I am desperate.
I am now hooked up to my Chemo Pump. What scares me more than the Cancer is not being able to pay my ongoing bills. Being so sick weak and in pain doesn't give me any leeway whatsoever. I have to ask for help with donations so I can pay for my ongoing care. The bottom line certainly boils down to a Shakespearean "TO BE OR NOT TO BE" .
Anything you can afford to donate will help me more than you can imagine.
I posted an update last night. I do need to let everybody know how truly desperately I need financial help now. I've simply been so sick that I haven't been able to function or even ask for help for the last month.. I start another round of Chemo tomorrow and I desperately need funds to pay for bills. Anything anybody can contribute will be a Godsend.
I feel totally helpless and I hate asking anybody for help but until I can regain some energy I don't know what else to do. My hip and elbow have also been very painful lately, so my life in wet humid FL has been almost unbearable for the last eight weeks.
I've simply been too sick to sit at the computer and write an appeal for the last month. I am in desperate need of financial help so I can continue to receive my ongoing medications, fight my Cancer and pay my bills. The doughnut "death" hole has recently made my financial plight even more severe. Medications that formerly had a $60 co-pay are now costing over $164.00 for a thirty day supply. Unfortunately, I take dozens of medications fighting this disease and stopping treatment now is simply not an option I wish to contemplate. Anything you can contribute will help me to continue to fight this pernicious disease and stay alive. FYI Many medications are simply not covered by insurance at all so fighting this illness is very costly.
I've been dealing with severe Nausea, Neuropathy, Mental Exhaustion and other nasty cumulative Chemo side effects but I am determined to keep going and ultimately beat this disease. Better minds than mine, have said the current treatments for Cancer are often much worse than the disease itself.
Again, anything you can afford to contribute will be greatly appreciated. I am desperate to continue to fight this Cancer. I have also been humbled by this illness and the generosity of my friends, family and acquaintances.
I am still in truly desperate shape physically and financially. The pain and exhaustion have left me with few options other than to ask for help on this site. Anything anybody can contribute will be greatly appreciated because it will allow me to continue with my treatments and medications. As I've mentioned I am in the doughnut hole so the cost of my medications has risen substantially.
Every dollar that has already been donated has been spent on my ongoing medical bills. I am desperately sick from my Chemotherapy and asking for help from anybody is humbling for me. Unfortunately given my seriously deteriorated state of health, the only thing I know how to do is to keep fighting so I can try to beat this Cancer.
Thanks in advance for anything you can do to help me.
I appreciate the help I've received to date more than I'll ever be able to convey in mere words. Having said that, I still desperately still need to raise additional donations as quickly as possible to continue to pay for my medical bills. I also urgently need some dental work because of the chemotherapy side effects. I've been replacing the dental crowns myself as they have come loose but unfortunately the harsh chemicals have caused some additional damage and it will require the help of a professional. I have been fighting to stay alive and have drained all of my financial resources. Asking for help given my current state of health is my only recourse at the moment.
I pray for the day when I have enough energy to actively work our website again. In the meantime, if anybody can help me with even a small donation it will allow me to continue my ongoing fight against this pernicious cancer. I humbles me asking for your help, but I honestly don't know what else to do.
I am in dire need of financial help now to pay for my treatments including many medications I need to continue to function. Anything you can contribute now so I can pay a bill on 6/16/14 will be extremely helpful.
Bless You All for your help to date. Anything you can help me with right now even a very small amount will help. I've been extremely sick from the side effects of my Chemo for the last eight weeks so it's been impossible for me to work at this time. Asking for your help is humbling to me but I am desperate to continue my fight with this pernicious cancer. I am simply overwhelmed right now and need help desperately.
I've been in a lot of pain recently but even more importantly I desperately need financial help. I have some very important bills that need to be paid by 6/16/14. I also need to buy more medicine to continue my treatments and because I am in the Doughnout hole the price of my prescriptions has more than doubled until I spend another $3,700.00. Anything anybody can contribute large or small now will help me survive. I hate asking for help but I am desperate.
I desperately need your help. My deteriorating health from the chemo side effects has made it nearly impossible for me to do anything. I must pay some bills by June 16th so anything you can contribute will be greatly appreciated.
I hate asking for help but I honestly don't know what else to do. As soon as I am feeling slightly better I will try to work on our website again. For the moment I simply need to keep taking my medications and continue to have faith in my Oncologist at the Cleveland Clinic.
Thanks in advance for anything you can contribute.
The generous financial help I received for May has now been depleted. I urgently need additional financial help now to keep going. Since my infusion on May 30th at the Cleveland Clinic, and then at home for three days, I have been seriously sick from the side effects of the Chemo. I couldn't even sit at the computer to write this plea for help until today.
My co-pays have increased dramatically because of my $3,700 Doughnut Hole. (A dear friend calls it the "Death Hole" quite appropriately, in my humble opinion.) My other monthly expenses and bills have made it nearly impossible for me to keep going. I have a huge bill due by 6/16/14 nearly $1,500 so I am pleading for any financial help you can spare now. I hate asking for help but I am at a loss for anything else to do given my current physical condition.
Being this sick from the very medications that are keeping me alive seems to be counter intuitive but that's exactly what's happened. The markers for Cancer in my blood are improving but my physical side effects have increased to the point where it's nearly impossible for me to function at all.
The details are too many to list here but for example, the dental Crowns in my mouth have come out again because of the Chemo side effects and I simply cannot afford to see a dentist to have the crowns re-cemented. Aside from making it hard for me to chew my food, it's a constant reminder of how my financial fortunes have diminished because of my expensive and ongoing Cancer treatments.
I am not a quitter and I assure you any donations will be put to very good use keeping me alive. I have been at this for about three and a half years now and though I feel worse from the side effects of my Chemo treatments the thing that bothers me the most is that I cannot function well enough to generate income to pay for my care and my day to day expenses. Cancer is difficult enough but the financial devastation can and often does make patients give up their fight to survive the disease.
Thanks in advance for anything you can spare to help me continue my fight with this pernicious disease. Unfortunately, our out of control healthcare system makes it nearly impossible for anybody but the very wealthy to pay for quality ongoing Cancer care.
Bless You All,
PS. The picture below was taken at the Cleveland Clinic on 5/30/14. The new building going up in the background is for a new Cancer care center. They currently simply have more demand than they have open spaces for care, so they are now building a whole new Cancer Center.
I desperately need financial help to pay my ongoing bills. I just finished another round of Chemotherapy that's keeping my Cancer in check. Unfortunately, the side effects from my treatments keep getting worse and it's often nearly impossible for me to even get out of bed on many days. The exhaustion and pain are exacerbated by my inability to meet many of my financial obligations. I desperately want to work on our website but I've been simply too sick to do so. All of my life savings have been used to pay for my ongoing medical care.
I was also just alerted to the fact that I've reached my 2014 Doughnut Hole and the prices for the medications I take regularly will now be much higher. Until I pay out of pocket another $3,700 I will have to continue to pay these higher prices.
I am still battling this horrible disease with all of my might, but I need financial help to continue. If anybody can help me with a donation I can assure you it will be immediately put to very good use. The donations are helping me to stay alive while paying for my medications and some of my ongoing bills.
I will need many more prescriptions filled this coming week so if anybody can donate anything to my fund now, that will help me more than you can imagine.
I want to thank all of my friends, family and even some strangers for their donations to date. Without your help I wouldn't have been able to fight this pernicious disease for the last three and a half years.
I've been down for the count after my last few Chemo infusions. I desperately need help so if anybody can donate anything it will be put to very good use.
The side effects of my chemotherapy treatments are cumulative so these days, I am often in pain and unable to function properly. It's scary and very frustrating but all I can do is keep fighting my Cancer.
Thanks in advance for your help.
Bless You All.
PS. The attached photo was taken this past Friday while I was receiving my regular Chemotherapy at the Cleveland Clinic. I then spend the rest of the weekend attached to another chemo pump at home. It's challenging but thus far it has kept me alive. Cancer is a pernicious disease and I hope to be able to continue to fight in an attempt to live.
Thanks for your help. Having said that, I've been quite sick since my last two Chemo infusions and I will have more debilitating infusions this week. I am also drowning emotionally from all of my ongoing debt.
Though I've received generous donations over the last few weeks and months, please know the funds have already been used to pay only a small portion of my outstanding bills. These bills accumulated over the last three and a half years while I've been battling my Cancer. As everybody no doubt understands all too well, even when battling Cancer, basic bills need to be paid.
Along with my basic living needs such as the cost of my monthly condo mortgage and maintenance, there are also countless basics such as food, gas, insurance etc. these costs outpace my current income so my level of debt has been climbing. Even when one is too sick to stand or eat, I can assure you that monetary considerations are still serious enough to cause additional stress. The easy way out, would be to simply give up. Since I have never taken the easy road and see no reason to start now, your donations have been critical in my ongoing quest for a cure.
If anybody can donate any amount, that would be greatly appreciated. I would also be delighted if somebody would buy something from our website www.fascinatingeffects.com I've mentioned this before and we have had some sales which certainly help with the bills.
Not being able to work and being so sick with Cancer is a duel nightmare. The bills continue and the expenses skyrocket. For me, it's at the point where it's impossible for the average person to comprehend the debt I've incurred simply trying to keep my head above water.
I desperately need help and that's why I am writing this new post. If there were anything else I could think of to do, I'd certainly do it. I dread my upcoming Chemotherapy infusions, but the fact is that the prescribed poisons and the excellent care I receive at the Cleveland Clinic are keeping me alive.
Thanks to everybody who's helped me to continue to survive to date. I've been quite sick since my last Chemotherapy infusion ended on Sunday. I know that the effects of the Chemo infusions are cumulative, and this is to be expected, but it's still very hard to function on a daily basis when one is nauseous and in pain, 24/7. I am a fighter, but it's getting harder and harder to keep my head above water financially.
I truly hate to ask anybody for help, but I am desperate, and anybody who can help me with even a small donation, needs to know that their generosity will allow me to try to continue to wage war against my Cancer.
Please know if you can help financially with my ongoing medical nightmare, you will be helping me more than you can possibly imagine.
Thank you all for your ongoing financial help. I've been a total physical wreck / mess since my recent Chemotherapy session started this past Friday and ended Sunday afternoon.
I want everybody to know that I am eager to work on my website. This would hopefully allow me to try and make enough money to pay for at least some of my ongoing medical bills. Unfortunately, though I wish I had the strength to work on the website, it seems that my body has it's own agenda.
The Side Effects of over three plus years of Cancer treatments are cumulative. They work on healthy cells as well as rouge ones. I have been reduced to asking others for financial help because the various medications and ongoing expenses for my care have wiped out my life savings. If I want the Anti Nausea medication my Oncologist has prescribed, I would have to pay $860.00+ per month, out of pocket. This is because Medicare and hence my two supplemental health insurance policies will not pay for it. The same is true for any generic anti nausea medication. For the moment, I simply do without, but it does make receiving the Chemotherapy much harder than it needs to be.
My Oncologist doesn't understand these draconian rulings related to which drugs are covered and which are not, but the whole situation is now a nightmare for me. At one point, I was receiving a Chemotherapy drug that was injected into my system every other week and cost, over $18,000.00 per injection. Thankfully, I am no longer on that extremely expensive Chemo drug, but the co-pays and other incidentals have already taken their financial toll.
Please know, that anybody who can afford to donate anything, will be helping me with my ongoing quest to beat this pernicious disease.
I want to thank everybody who's helped me to keep fighting this disease. Without your donations I don't know what I would do. It's meant the difference between my ability to pay some ongoing bills and medical co-pays or simply giving up my Cancer fight entirely.
My entire life savings have been wiped out fighting this disease over the last three plus years. If I hadn't paid a fortune for my healthcare premiums over the previous three and a half decades, that also would have made a huge difference in my finances.
I've been extremely sick since my last Chemo infusions which ended 11 days ago. This is why I haven't updated this site, my Facebook page, or answered e-mails for nearly two weeks. Over three years of treatments are taking their toll. Just sitting at a computer takes more energy than I can muster after my treatments.
I will receive more Chemo over the next few days. I dread the thought, but without these difficult treatments, I honestly doubt if I still would be alive.
I hate to ask anybody for help but just keeping my body and soul together is getting harder and harder. There are days when I do wonder if I can continue, but I am not a quitter so I keep fighting. I also realize that other people have faced this Cancer and survived and that knowledge continues to give me hope.
FYI - Drew is still trying to become adjusted to his new medications and unfortunately he's still sick as well. Hopefully Drew will become acclimated to his new medications sooner than later. Time will tell.
Anybody who can contribute anything to my fund will be helping me more than I can adequately articulate here. As I've said before, even very small donations will be greatly appreciated. I do feel like a social pariah not being able to work and pay my own way and my ongoing bills. Please know the treatments for my Cancer are totally debilitating. Nothing else would have stopped me from working I can assure you.
The minute I feel slightly better I will try to update our website with new items. I actually enjoy working, so it's been very hard for me mentally as well as physically. For the moment, I've been down for the count and too sick to function. Please believe me when I say, it's been pure Hell.
Thanks in advance for any assistance you may be able to provide.
I am still having an extremely difficult time physically, financially, and I desperately need help.
I will receive Chemotherapy at the Cleveland Clinic this Friday and when I get home, I will be hooked up to a portable pump for another three days of Chemotherapy. The treatments leave me without any energy whatsoever and I am usually extremely sick for another ten days. I've been fighting for over three years now and I simply have to keep going.
Drew is also having severe reactions to the new medications he's received from his MD's at the VA. He's now experiencing more severe memory loss, bad headaches, the shakes, and hasn't been able to eat.
On Monday he will have blood work at the VA and then go for a walk in appointment very early Tuesday morning to see his psychiatrist. Hopefully at that time they can determine what drugs are working or why he's having such negative reactions to the medications.
I pray that I will be well enough to get him to his appointments because he isn't well enough yet to function on his own. It's a no win situation for the both of us and it breaks my heart.
My ability to work and function is at the lowest level it's ever been. I am also experiencing more pain in my artificial hip, shattered elbow and back which scares me because I am terrified my Cancer has spread.
I have been fighting to function on a daily basis to make sure that Drew gets the medical care he needs so he can be stabilized.
My hope is that after my next Chemo I will at least have a little energy to work on our website. I am desperate to generate income to keep the both of us going. Not being able to do anything to help myself or Drew financially is the worst experience I've ever faced.
I truly appreciate the help I've received to date. Please know that all of the money received thus far has been used to pay some of my many bills. The wolves are circling the wagon these days and I am now dodging bill collectors.
I have never felt worse and simply do not know what else to do other than to ask anybody who can, to either buy something that's already listed on our website, or if possible donate anything you can to my Go Fund Me website.
I would also appreciate it if you could send the link to my Go Fund Me page to your friends and family coworkers or anybody else who's experienced Cancer or a life threatening illness. The easiest thing would be for me to give up, but I've been fighting too hard for too long, to simply give up now.
As I have said before, even small donations will help. I am almost at the end of my tether, physically, and financially. I assure you my current situation is simply horrible and if anybody can help me to continue to survive it will be a true kindness.
I am in desperate shape physically and need help. The donations to date have bought me some time for which I am extremely thankful. My overall financial needs are way beyond my goal listed above. My monthly needs including my insurance co-pays have left me struggling to stay afloat from week to week.
My ability to function physically is severely compromised and it's become a major problem on a daily basis. I honestly don't know what else to do other than to ask for even small donations from all of the contacts in my network. Living with Cancer for this long and trying to beat it is beyond anything else I've ever experienced. I pray that nobody else I know ever has to go through this nightmare.
It would help me if you could pass this along to your friends and family. I feel like I am drowning and it's terrifying. My Cancer and the Chemo treatments, have left me without any energy whatsoever which is a huge problem for me and now Drew.
FYI - Drew is now on new medications again as of Wednesday. Hopefully he can be stabilized very soon. The medications the VA gave him last week actually made him even more anxious.
I haven't been able to post a message in a number of days because I have been running a fever and haven't been feeling at all well. Hopefully my cold and feeling of total exhaustion will dissipate, at least a little, as I will not have Chemo this week. There is a new Scheduler at the Clinic and somehow my early Friday appointment for March 14th was never booked.
I will see my Oncologist this Friday for blood work and a general check up, but I won't be hooked up to the Chemo pump at the Cleveland Clinic, or for the next three days, I usually receive the additional Chemo at home.
As I am still exhausted from all of my toxic Cancer treatments over the last three years, I hope that this short time out, won't allow my rouge Cancer cells to go wild.
In recent days, because of my ever deteriorating financial condition, to my dismay, I find myself worrying about how I will survive even another month. These are thankfully rare thoughts, because I need to keep myself mentally strong for Drew.
Coming undone will serve no purpose whatsoever. I simply try to remain positive and hope that either a sale on our website or another donation on this site will allow me to pay my ever mounting monthly bills.
Being so sick for so long, really changes everything and makes life terribly complicated.
My minds eye still thinks I can work and sell my handmade jewelry, artwork and inherited items through my website. ( PERHAPS ONE DAY SOON I WILL HAVE THE ENERGY TO MAKE MY WEBSITE SELF SUSTAINING. THAT'S MY PRAYER ANYWAY.) The reality is that even writing a plea like this on my Go Fund Me site, these days, physically wipes me out.
Just keeping myself going each day takes an enormous amount of energy. All of the toxic Chemotherapy and Radiation over the last three years have taken their toll. Just being able to do the wash or prepare a simple meal, actually seems to me like I am climbing Mt. Everest.
My biggest problem is my lack of energy to work on our website. I did have a sale on our website this past week from a dear friend. Each dollar is already accounted for but I am extremely thankful for her purchase.
What I really need to stay afloat and stop my rapid financial decline are many more purchases from our website: www.fascinatingeffects.com
Be it sale from our website, or donations, however small, to this GoFundMe website, I desperately need income to keep afloat.
Becoming destitute as a possible future, on top of my Orthopedic illnesses and Cancer, almost seems unfathomable to me. However tough I've been since my first accident when I was 29, surviving into the future without any sufficient financial resources, will be the final and ultimate humiliation.
The best luck anybody can have is good health, if you have that, you truly have the world and are blessed.
I need to make money whatever way possible just to pay this months bills and my ever looming 2013 real estate taxes. As you all know by now, my Cancer care and lifetime of ever mounting medical bills has totally decimated my life savings. Without sufficient income, or energy to make that income, I simply fall deeper into debt each month.
This site has allowed me to keep receiving my treatments and to cover the costly co-pays for the medications I need for my Cancer care. Unexpected events like auto repairs, dental problems, or repairs to our A/C system, keep popping up and without resources I've had to accrue even more debt. The alternative is to simply do without some of the basics and we've also done that. I do live very modestly but without the energy to research, photograph, list and market our website, earning enough money to keep afloat has become nearly impossible.
I spend a great part of each day too sick to function. When I do have a little energy it's often put to use either answering e-mails or perhaps cooking. If I knew another solution to my current terribly embarrassing insolvency, I would certainly pursue it.
Asking for help from anybody is something I never thought I would have to do. The sad fact is that without my strength and health I am simply unable to support myself.
No doubt part of Drew's anxiety is my getting sicker and sicker and he is terrified of how he will survive if I cannot continue even at my current sloth like pace.
Drew also feels terrible that he cannot help me financially so it's a no win situation for him and something of a psychological conundrum as well.
Cancer is a terrible disease but I have survived for three years now only because of terribly expensive and debilitating drugs. If I didn't take things one day at a time I doubt I could forge ahead or for that matter would even still be alive.
I have to believe that one day soon another more efficient therapy for my Cancer will be released.
I've got tenacity and determination and I am doing the best I know how to survive.
Your help is the only thing that's allowed me to make it thus far. I am hoping that you might be kind enough to share my site with any of your friends, family or co-workers. Perhaps some of these people might already know about the financial problems that people with serious or terminal illnesses face in this country.
Again, anybody who can contribute even a small amount please do so. No contribution is too small and I can assure you every dime will be used to keep me and now Drew afloat.
I've asked every Cancer organization for assistance but they don't have the resources these days because their donations have dried up.
Thanks in advance for anything you can do to help.
I also want to thank everybody who's helped me to date. Without your contributions I would not be able to sit at this computer writing this ongoing plea.
Thank you for your donations. My bills are slowly being paid, but I am terrified about my real estate tax bill due by March 31, 2014. I am hoping for either many small donations on this site, or sales on my www.fascinatingeffects.com website. I still have hundreds of other items to list, but I have simply been too sick to photograph, research, and properly list them.
As I've explained, all of my life savings have been depleted trying to stay alive and unfortunately the day to day bills have only gotten larger. I feel like a burden to my friends and family but I am not yet ready to give up this fight. I thank you all in advance for anything you can spare to help me keep fighting.
FYI - Drew is home and hopefully once he see's his Psychiatrist on Wednesday morning she will be able to determine what anti anxiety and anti depressant medications he should be taking. For the moment he's taking the drugs they prescribed at the hospital he was taken to after his functional breakdown on February 14th. He was released to my care this past Thursday late in the day. I only wish I were feeling better so I could help him more.
I did see my Oncologist on Friday at the Cleveland Clinic and we are holding off on my Chemo for a week so I can get Drew stabilized.
Unfortunately by Saturday morning both Drew and I had contracted either a virus, or some other bug. This means I've been down for the count with a fever, sore throat and other traditional cold symptoms ever since. Given my total lack of an immune system it's not difficult for me to catch a cold. The good news is that I do finally feel slightly better this evening. The other good news is that it was a lucky break that I wasn't receiving my regular chemo when I caught this cold. The chemo simply would have made me even sicker than I already am.
Thank you again for all the help you have given me to date. I hate to ask for this help, but as I've explained I am simply too sick to do anything else.
Please note, that even small donations will help and I wouldn't ask for help if I didn't desperately need it. I won't mention the full amount of my debt, but 99% of the debt was incurred paying for my cancer treatments or for my health insurance over the previous three and a half decades. It's scary what drugs and healthcare can cost. I was also very unrealistic about my ability to keep working which would have allowed me to continue to generate enough income to keep me afloat.
Thank you for your help today. Raising money this way is humbling for me, but given my health and situation it's the only way I know how to pay my ever mounting bills.
Drew was released from the hospital today though his social worker only called me this morning. Originally they were going to release Drew without any of the meds he's been taking during the two weeks he's been hospitalized.
He was hospitalized in the first place because he ran out and did not want to bother me with the problem. He feels he's been a burden to me but nothing could be further from the truth.
I explained to his case worker that I would not take him out unless they gave him a weeks supply of the new medications. The problem is that he won't be able to see his Psychiatrist at the VA hospital until next Wednesday so if he went through another bout of withdrawal from his anti depressants he might wind up back in the hospital.
None of the logic made any sense to me, but the medical system in this country especially anything to do with mental illness is still in the dark ages. It's certainly improved from what it once was but it has a long way to go. I was feeling very ill while doing all of this today but I had to raise to meet the challenge and thankfully I did.
I finally got Drew home with a weeks worth of meds at about 6PM. He is very sorry about everything especially about what his depression does to me. I have explained again that he is not a burden unless he's a danger to himself. Clearly I hope his appointment at the VA was sooner than next Wednesday but at least he now has medications to get him through the week.
I have an appointment early today at the Cleveland Clinic with my Oncologist so I'll make this update brief. All 0f the donations to date have allowed me to keep going. I've been feeling sicker and sicker, but I have to keep fighting or I would loose the will to beat this Cancer.
Any donation, even a small one, will help me pay some of the massive debt I've incurred to date paying for the treatment of this disease. Perhaps I shouldn't have spent my life savings on the medications and health insurance. The conundrum is that if I hadn't, I would not still be alive.
A dear old friend sent me new information about various services offered by the American Cancer Society. I will certainly call them about some of the services, but the sad fact still remains that I've wiped out my life savings and the bills including, enormous mounting debt, real estate taxes and co-pays for this months medications must be paid.
If I don't pay these ongoing bills, it's either a choice of loosing my apartment, not taking various medications, or not having transportation in FL. None are good options, so I will continue to appeal for help from my friends, family, and friends of friends. The donations to date have allowed me to survive this long. I am humbled and my head is bowed. Unless you are sick you cannot imagine how difficult doing anything can be. Just making a phone call or even writing this post take up most of my energy. The Chemo treatments wreck havoc on ones body and doing anything meaningful, seems akin to climbing Mt Everest.
Thank you for your recent contributions. I still need to pay the taxes on my condominium by the end of March so I am begging anybody who can help to please do so now. If I knew of anything else to do I assure you I would be doing it. If I could work I would, I'd even sell my body for science, but to date there are no takers.
I have simply been so sick that additional work on our website has been impossible. Many friends have suggested various charities etc and other remedies. Please know I have tried them all and donations have simply dried up or I am not qualified for a given program because of my social security income. None of it makes sense, and it's all terrifying to me. That I am forced to re-cement my own dental crowns by myself is only the tip of the iceberg that we call excellent medical care in this country.
Small donations or forwarding this site to others will be appreciated. As I said above, If I knew of something else to do to rectify my horrible financial plight I would certainly do it. Asking others for help is humiliating and it breaks my heart even to have to ask. The friends who have donated will never be forgotten. To a large extent my financial plight is a major portion of why Drew had his breakdown/functional disorder on 2.14.14. He's sick too, was denied disability and cannot help me which is very depressing for him even though I may say otherwise. It's a vicious circle now encompassing two lives.
I am still surviving but it's been very hard and now sleeping has been nearly impossible.
Drew is still hospitalized at a private hospital because they did not have enough beds at the VA.
There is a chance Drew will be released today and I hope and pray that he is. I also pray that I can afford to fill the prescriptions they give him because he cannot see his MD at the VA until next Tuesday.
I don't understand the MD's at his current hospital because without his medications I am afraid he'll slip right back into depression.
I did speak to his Therapist at the VA and she said I could always take him to the emergency room in Miami. This is not really practical given the way I am feeling but I will roll with the punches. Just wish me luck.
Naturally my being sick colors everything so I am taking things one hour at a time. Most people have no idea what a disease like Cancer and the treatment to keep surviving will do to a patient.
I also have the added problems of a shattered left elbow and a revised Artificial Hip that was replaced in 1989 at the Hospital For Special Surgery by Philip Wilson Jr. MD. It's finally wearing out, so walking is getting harder and harder but I keep going none the less. Clearly I will do whatever I need to do to help Drew get out of the hospital today but it won't be easy. I simply need to keep things light and hopefully just get through all of this tension, one day at a time.
I am supposed to have my appointment at the Cleveland Clinic this Friday Morning and given my health I dare not miss it. This is the reason I had the starter in my car repaired instead of paying some other bills. I also got the bad news today that I will also need a new battery for the car. For the moment, that repair will have to wait, but according to the mechanic, it won't wait too long.
Thank you all for your help, without it, I simply would not be able to continue.
I have simply been too sick to post another message until early this morning. I truly am at the end of my tether, but I do want to thank everybody who's helped me to date.
Drew is still hospitalized and they are trying to adjust his medications for severe depression and pain so he'll eventually be able to leave the hospital.
He's been very sick and unfortunately I have not been able to visit him because my car needs a new starter and I haven't been well enough to get it towed to the garage yet. Hopefully I will this morning because I need the car to get to the Cleveland Clinic this Friday for more Chemotherapy.
I also need to be able to pay for the repair and for the co-pays for many of the drugs I take to stay alive.
On February 14th, the same day Drew had his Functional Disorder / breakdown and was hospitalized, he also took the pictures of me below at the Cleveland Clinic. Since those photos I have been a total mess and honestly don't know what to do. I need help even small donations just to get through this month and to figure out someway how to survive.
Drew's hospitalization was due to his running out of his anti anxiety medications and not telling me. He simply did not want to add to my problems and clearly wasn't thinking in his right frame of mind. I just pray his MD's can stabilize him because there is still no room for him at the VA hospital and because of the loss of his job he's now indigent.
Anything anybody can contribute will be used to pay for my continuing care and so I can continue to fight this horrible disease. There have been days lately where I have simply been too sick to leave the apartment or stray too far from the bathroom because the cure/Chemo is taking a terrible toll on my body.
If any of you can buy something from our website www.fascinatingeffects.com that will help, but until I get the car repaired I won't even be able to get the items to the post office, so please wait a while. As soon as I have a little strength God willing, I have hundreds of items to add to the site but I need Drew to help me and until he's back home that task will simply have to wait.
In the meantime, if you would share my plea for help with your friends, family and co-workers I will forever be in your debt. I simply don't know what else to do.
Again, a million thanks for those who've helped me to date. I assure you the funds have already been used to pay my ever mounting bills. Without your help and support, I suspect I simply would have given up a long time ago. This is one life lesson I would have preferred to miss.
Dear Supporters, Thank you for your recent donations. I have some truly upsetting news to discuss below. I have been recovering from my last infusion and have unfortunately been too sick to post it until this evening.
My best friend, partner, care giver, and all around sweet and kind human being, Drew Denning had a mental breakdown and has been hospitalized at a private hospital in Ft, Lauderdale. He has been in the hospital since I was hooked up to my portable infusion pump at home last Friday.
He's unfortunately, still hospitalized but it was a horrible weekend for us both, since I was attached to a Chemo pump and I was basically unable to help him. What is clear is that he needs to have his anti anxiety, medications and medications for depression adjusted. He also needs to faithfully take them as prescribed in the future.
Drew has had major depression problems for all of the 13 years I have known him. Since he has no friends in FL, I have taken it upon myself to help him and in turn he has helped me. FYI, He lost his job as a IT tech at Morgan Stanley (via a subcontractor) in 2005 when his job was sent to India.
Drew also has serious health (herniated discs, stenosis of the spine, and other serious health problems. In addition, as mentioned above, drew suffers from serious depression.) I finally got Drew into the VA as a Vet a year and three months ago. Up until then he spent all of his savings paying $1,300 per month for an HMO and helping me with our day to day bills.
Though his MD testified he was truly disabled, Drew was turned down three times for disability. It does not seem to matter to the courts in FL, (unless perhaps if you are represented by a highly respected lawyer,) that he cannot work and nobody will hire him.
The last SSDI judge completely humiliated him by saying, that at the least he could work as a toll booth attendant. Needless to say that did not help with his depression or his self esteem.
Drew is a very proud man and even my writing this will upset him. Since I have decided to come clean about his mental breakdown and my financial position, I also felt that I should be completely honest about, the full extent of my problems. I felt that I should also be honest about what Drew has been put through, even though certainly not intentionally by me.
Since it's hard for me to do much of anything after the chemotherapy sessions, Drew helps me with our www.fascinatingeffects.com website and when we've had some sales, helps with all of the packing etc.
Drew is also is a great comfort to have around, since much of the time I am simply too sick to even answer the phone. I really thought that the weekly psychotherapy session he's been receiving at the VA was working.
Drew is a very private person and I had no idea that he was so seriously depressed recently. (so much for my astute powers of observation) I honestly thought that the therapy at the VA and the medication he was taking were helping him.
Evidently my current treatment, and my current negative financial situation have simply been the final broken straw for Drew's fragile mental state.
I have literally wiped out my savings paying for my medical care and all of the normal day to day expenses such as insurance, gas, food, maintenance etc.
I have been very fortunate that kind friends and acquaintances have donated to this site. These donations have helped me keep going and in return it's helped me to keep Drew going.
Because of this Go Fund Me site, and the kindness of my friends and family, I have been able to remain positive about beating my Cancer. It also allows me to keep making each months ongoing bills and thus survive.
I do have a real estate tax bill due at the end of March and since I've been so sick after each treatment, Drew simply could not see the light or perhaps hope, anymore, and came completely undone. Another part of the reason for drew's nervous (functional disorder) breakdown this last Friday is below.
Evidently, when our car broke down the day of his scheduled psychotherapy appointment at the VA the Tuesday before last, he did not tell me he was also out of his anti anxiety medication. (Had I known we certainly would have taken a cab or asked a neighbor for help.)
Drew incorrectly feels he's been a huge burden to me for years, but he hasn't. He often tells me that I would be better off had I not helped him at all. He's very self effacing and a kind and gentle soul. In truth it's actually Drew who has kept me going since helping him, helps me keep focused and with a strong and focused purpose to survive. Everybody, in my opinion, needs to help each other, or life perhaps really isn't worth living.
Drew has also helped me in more ways than he knows, but all of this stress and watching me suffer, clearly has been too much for his fragile mental state.
As I mentioned above, he was taken to a private hospital in Ft. Lauderdale because there were no beds available at the Miami Veterans Administration Hospital. This is also where his therapist works except for Tuesdays when she works at the local VA near Tamarac where Drew see's her every Tuesday afternoon. She has no way to help Drew at the hospital where he was taken after his breakdown.
It's now almost a full week later and Drew is still at the private hospital and I have no idea when he will be stable enough to come home or be transferred to a VA facility. Since I cannot start the car, I also need to have that fixed and I cannot do that until I feel well enough to have the car towed to my mechanic. I also have been afraid to leave the apartment for too long, just in case they release Drew because he doesn't even have his keys.
Actually the hospital won't tell me when or how but did say it could be with only a few hours notice. Perhaps I am not rational myself, but with my nausea, and weakness my explanation will have to suffice for a rationalization however flimsy.
I pray that I will be able to get the car fixed before next Friday when I am scheduled for more Chemotherapy at The Cleveland Clinic in Weston, Fl. I also need the car to Visit Drew wherever he winds up. FYI, a kind neighbor took me to see Drew this past Sunday. At that time I was able to bring him some clothing and his glasses,but I have not been able to see him since.
For the moment I am simply relying on the kindness of my neighbors for my transportation, since I have no other options. I have walked to pay a few bills but it's all very difficult for me with my aging artificial hip. Unfortunately, there isn't any regular public transportation where I live and taking cabs is simply too expensive for me.
It's actually a long story, but I never imagined that my finances would be devastated by an illness like this. Yes, I've had serious orthopedic medical issues since 1976, but nothing has been as devastating as this Cancer and the brutal treatments and the costs of the care that are used to keep it at bay.
For whatever reason our society doesn't discuss things like the cost of Adult Depends, even the generics are not inexpensive. The cost of other necessities when sick are also endless with any disease and naturally are not covered by any insurance plan.
Previously I mentioned that the acid from my stomach causes my Dental Crowns to come out and how being resourceful, and with the advice of my NYC dentist, I purchased some professional dental cement to re-cement the crowns myself, well the cost of the cement, and prior to that all the temporary cements weren't covered by insurance either. It actually was a very expensive side effect but dental care in FL was unaffordable. Why in this country we don't consider our teeth, or eyes as part of our bodies and why they aren't covered by our medical insurance plans, still eludes me.
When I was younger I thought I lived prudently enough to survive when I could no longer work. What I did not enter into the open ended equation was being attacked by a disease like Canc
I am sorry to ask, but I need help. Any purchase from my www.fascinatingeffects.com website or my http://www.gofundme.com/502kcg will help me pay some of my overdue medical bills. I am truly at a loss at the moment and I am supposed to receive more Chemo this Friday at the Cleveland Clinic in Weston Fl. I then also receive more Chemotherapy for several days at home. It's been a true test of my determination and will power even surviving this long, but I will continue to try and fight. I am humbled asking anybody for anything, but I honestly don't know what else to do. I appreciate everybody who's helped me thus far, but if you could forward my links to anybody you know that will also be a great help. Even my car has recently developed some problems so getting it started is now an iffy proposition.
As soon as I regain some energy I will list some new items on the www.fascinatingeffects.com website. My exhaustion has been severe and just sitting at a computer has been nearly impossible for the last month and a half. We did not have any sales on our website in December but that was partially due to our being switched to a new website host Big Commerce. We still have the same Merchant Service Provider Intuit®, which handles all of the credit card transactions trough their safe and secure servers. They own QuickBooks, and though it costs us more to use their service we feel using the most secure financial service is the safest thing we can offer our customers.
I am still having a very hard time functioning due to the effects of the ongoing Chemotherapy. I am still fighting this disease but it hasn't been easy. All I can do is take things one day at a time and hope that one day soon I'll begin to feel better.
Thanks to everybody who's helped me with my ongoing financial nightmare.
Sorry I haven't updated this site in a while but my last Chemo infusion left me without any energy whatsoever. I also had a cold so it was a terrible combination. Any donations will be greatly appreciated. Hopefully in a couple of days I'll add some additional photos and more information.
I am truly awe struck at the kindness of so many friends and friends of friends family members and complete strangers. Your generosity will allow me to keep receiving the medical care I need to keep going.
I receive more Chemo over the next few days both at Home and at the Cleveland Clinic. Somehow I'll get through the next scheduled assault on my body. Hopefully I'll survive this as I have all the radiation and chemo I have received for the last three years.
The care I am receiving at the Cleveland Clinic is excellent and with0ut their care I doubt I would be writing this note.
I want everybody to know that I will most likely not be able to answer e-mails or respond to messages for the next few days at least. It takes my body quite a few days after I receive Chemo before I have any energy to do anything.
Everybody has been extremely kind, generous, & supportive. I can never express what all of the donations and help means to me.
Just a short update. I am truly humbled by the continuing donations from friends and friends of friends. These gifts will allow me to pay my bills this month.
I will never forget so many selfless acts of kindness just when I need them the most.
I did have some good news today, I was able to get the Air Conditioning system in my apartment Fixed.
Again, those of you freezing from the ice, snow and cold, might not understand the need for this repair, but in South Fl I assure you AC is essential.
We have temperatures in the 80's forecast again for this weekend.
The temperature in the apartment last night remained at 80 degrees even with the windows opened and the prevailing cooler temperature outside only around 70. I have no idea why it did not cool down but perhaps the heat from the day had remained in the concrete. Removing The humidity from the air in the apartment is another major part of the system and without it I suspect this apartment would most likely be a great place to grow mold or perhaps even mushrooms.
I was dreading the idea of spending any time hooked up to my chemo pump without a functional AC system. As you can imagine I was therefore quite relieved to have the system restored.
Mayleth Suarez who manages our condo complex, asked Carlos, the maintenance man in our complex if he would take a look at our system before I called a repairman. Carlos is very talented and he was kind enough to go up to the roof and fix my AC system. I honestly would not have been able to afford to call an AC specialist right now, so the help from Mayleth and Carlos was an amazing gift.
Thankfully, only a fuse had come loose in the compressor that resides on the roof. Ultimately, this was the reason for the system shutting down completely yesterday. As I had noted yesterday I replaced the system 10 years ago and I have maintained it carefully ever since. If I weren't so sick I would have gone up to the roof myself to check the compressor but it was simply out of the question.
These rooftop AC systems are very expensive and given all of my current medical bills, and ongoing medical debt, I simply could not even consider the idea that this breakdown was permanent. I also knew that if there was a serious problem there was no chance I would be able to afford the cost of another new system.
As you can imagine, I breathed a huge sigh of relief after Carlos fixed the system and explained that other than that small problem everything else was fine.
Now all I have to do is get through another Chemo infusion this week at the Cleveland Clinic and more infusions with my at home infusion pump over the weekend. I also need to gather enough strength to keep fighting this disease. Having a working AC system will certainly make the my upcoming treatments easier.
I will never be able to thank everybody who's reached out to help me. I am forever in your debt.
I want to thank everybody who's donated to my site recently.
I have had a hard time functioning this weekend. The side effects from the chemo and other medications I receive have left me without any energy whatsoever.
I desperately wanted to get various chores accomplished this past weekend but those tasks will simply have to wait until I feel a little better. My body is calling all the shots and unfortunately I now have to listen or the consequences will be dire.
FYI - Today the Air Conditioning system in my apartment stopped working. For all of you who are currently dealing with snow, ice and bone chilling frigid temps this must seem a trivial matter.
I however live in South FL, and the temperature in my apartment was 86 degrees today. The humidity was also off the chart. My only hope is that a cold front is supposed to come through this evening so I have my fingers crossed for a temporary respite.
I replaced the whole AC system 10 years ago and have maintained it well. Unfortunately I simply cannot afford to hire anybody right now to determine what exactly has gone wrong with the unit. It might be anything from a recent lightning strike to something nesting in the main unit which is located on the roof of the condo apartment where I live.
If I were feeling better, I would have gone up on the roof myself to see what the cause might be. Given my health, that's simply out of the question now. Aside from my Cancer, my aging second artificial hip replacement would not allow me to climb the small ladder that provides access to the roof. I suspect it's forbidden anyway but I like to think I would have figured a way around that restriction.
I am supposed to receive more Chemo later this week which I am dreading, so please forgive me if I don't answer your e-mails promptly.
Again, I want to thank everybody who's helped to keep me going. Being seriously ill and not being able to work is difficult emotionally, and financially. It's also very hard for me to ask anybody else for help, so the whole experience for me has been very humbling. ( I am sure it has to do with the whole self reliance thing that was drilled into my head as a child.)
I've worked through serious health situations before and I've always somehow managed to survive. This time, I simply have had no other options other than to reach out and ask other people for their help.
The old adage that "it's better to give than receive" is stuck in my head. I am honestly trying to turn down the internal volume, at least a little, on that pithy saying.
Discovering that friends, relatives, acquaintances, friends of friends, and even total strangers care enough about my health and current financial predicament to donate to my GoFundMe website, has truly lightened my burden and touched me to the very core of my being.
I will never be able to thank everybody enough for their help and continuing support.
I've been recovering from my last two Chemo infusions. Please forgive me if I haven't responded to an e-mail or message. Hopefully I will get some energy back very soon.
I am also finally working on a newer computer that my cousin Ross was kind enough to send me. Prior to this gift, I was still working on my old Apple Titanium PowerBook DVI G4 which unfortunately is no longer supported by anything. Prior to this updated computer, none of the programs or websites I need to access worked properly on my old laptop. At least now I have a chance of responding to an e-mail in a timely way.
Thanks again to everybody who's donated to my go fund me page. Working is nearly impossible but the bills keep coming none the less so every donation has helped me to keep my head afloat.
I am still hanging on and will receive more chemo this Friday. At least the Cleveland Clinic has kept me going for the last two years. My head may be bowed, but I am looking forward to a day when I can raise it again.
I want to thank everybody who's contributed to my GoFundMe account thus far. I cannot tell you what this means to me.
Bless you all for any financial help you can provide.
I have been receiving medical care for Metastatic Colon Cancer for
the last three years. Unfortunately, I now find myself in a position where I need to ask others for financial assistance. I am simply too sick to generate the income I need to be financially self sustaining.
I personally know from a lifetime of my own medical expenses how deleterious any serious illness can affect one's finances. I have been fighting to stay alive most of my adult life. I now find myself in a position that forces me to ask others to help me so I can continue to fight my Cancer and stay alive.
My entire life savings were depleted because of the cost of my Health Insurance and additional
medical expenses for the previous three and a half decades. If this had not been the case, I would most
certainly be able to pay my current and future bills. I had an accident when I was 29 years old and spent the better part of a year recovering at The Hospital For Special Surgery in NYC.
Getting older and depleting
ones life savings on medical care is depressing, I also realize,
had I not received the extraordinary care I did when I was younger, I
would not have survived until now. I have read many of the other requests on this website and I know that I am not alone in my financial plight. Because of my preexisting condition the cost of my health insurance was exorbitant for most of my adult life.
My Premium (Motivation / Gifts) Publishing Business FRW Inc., which marketed
among other things, subscription renewal premiums to companies like Newsweek,
imploded with the publishing industry and was a casualty of the larger financial meltdown. Ultimately, due to lack of sales, I was forced to close the
I moved to FL full time in late 2011 after seven months of Radiation and Chemotherapy in NYC through my HMO. I no longer had my former health insurance policy that would have allowed me to use the MD's and hospitals that had helped me survive over the previous three and a half decades.
I moved to an HMO in 2009 because my monthly health insurance premiums were about to jump to $4,800 per month from $4,500 per month. By then, I had almost completely exhausted my financial reserves so I had no other options. Since I was about to
turn 65 in January 2012, after moving full time to FL., I waited an additional month for continuing health care. I did this because I was eligible for
Medicare in January 2012. What I did not know was that to receive the care I required to stay alive, I would also need to pay for two expensive Supplemental Medicare Health insurance policies. Cancer treatments are not cheap and Medicare doesn't cover everything including many drugs, procedures and incidentals.
To earn money, I started a website called fascinatingeffects.com with Drew
Denning. This site was designed to sell items that both of us had inherited or
had made by hand ourselves. The hope was that this site would allow us to generate the
desperately needed income to remain financially solvent. To date, that has not been the case. The website is still active but it is unfortunately not yet financailly self sustaining.
FYI - I have been receiving Chemotherapy at the Cleveland Clinic in Weston FL. since January 2012. The Chemotherapy is very
hard on my system and it's nearly impossible to do anything between treatments.
The medical care I receive at the Cleveland Clinic is excellent and I have a wonderful Oncologist. I now find myself in the financial position, where If I cannot afford the expensive supplemental health insurance policies, (and the cost of the various drug co-pays), I shortly won't be able to continue to receive the level of health care that has sustained my life for the last two years. This is a horrible situation and I quite often feel helpless.
I have had some sales on the fascinatingeffects.com website
and I now receive my social security retirement benefits, but my income doesn't even begin to cover the cost of the various Health Insurance Policies, Co-Pays, Health Related incidentals like Dental Care, let alone my Mortgage, Auto Insurance, Car
Repairs, Telephone bills, Home Insurance for my Condominium, Real Estate Taxes, Food, etc.
Unfortunately the apartment which I share with Drew Denning is deeply underwater so I cannot sell it. This in no small part is due to the fact that the housing bubble was extremely severe in FL.
Not knowing what to do, and afraid I would not be able to
continue to pay my ongoing bills, I have contacted dozens of Cancer Organizations. I qualified for their help,
but due to a lack of donations from their supporters they simply could not help me. Our sluggish economy has everything to do with this ongoing financial dilemma.
Asking anybody to help me with my
financial problems is something I never thought I would have to do. The whole process of asking for help from anybody, is mortifying and humbling. I desperately need to keep my apartment, and I need to continue to receive the quality medical care at The Cleveland Clinic that will let me survive my battle with Cancer. To accomplish my goals, I find that I have no other options but to reach out to my friends, family, and others for their help and support at this time in my life. As the saying goes, where there is life, there is hope.
enormous medical expenses, I no longer have any discretionary income. I try to live very modestly but my fixed costs keep mounting. Thankfully, some friends and family members
including Drew Dennings, have helped with loans and some monetary gifts. These loans and gifts have allowed me
to survive this long. I now need to generate more income quickly or I will
not be able to pay for my ongoing care or remain in my apartment. It's a choice I would rather not be forced to make.
I am very embarrassed about asking anybody for monetary help and even writing this plea makes me feel worthless. I would much rather earn the money myself, but because of my ongoing illness and the severe side effects from my treatments, my ability
to work has been severely compromised. Due to decades of extraordinarily expensive
medical care, I now find that I have few alternatives to stay afloat financially other than to turn to a fund raising
site like this. Perhaps, had there been an affordable health care act when I was younger, that did not penalize prior preexisting medical conditions, I would not find myself in this current financial predicament.
Contracting an expensive illness after spending the previous three
and a half decades dealing with severe and expensive Orthopedic problems isn't
easy. I do know that the extraordinary care I received when I was younger at The Hospital For Special Surgery from Dr. Phillip Wilson Jr. and many of the other amazing MD's and staff members, allowed me to survive until now. I take each day as it comes and I
realize how fortunate I am to still be alive. Please know that I do try to work when I am well enough to do so. My hope is that one day soon I'll regain enough energy to work full time on the fascinating effects website.
Posting my story on the gofundme.com website hopefully will allow me to
reach a larger universe of potential donors. I hope this larger pool of former friends, co workers, and friends of friends, can help contribute something to allow me to continue to receive my health care and the medications I need to survive.
Your help will also allow me to remain mentally positive about my ongoing fight to beat the cancer that has attacked my system. It's not in my nature to quit and given all of the money, energy and time that I have spent to stay alive until now, it would be a crime to simply give up.
I am turning to others via this funding website to see if they can help me with my fight. All donations will be appreciated more than mere words will allow me to express.
Thank you in advance for your compassion and understanding. May all of you be
blessed with good health and prosperity.
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